forever me...=X

2009-12-06T13:51:00.004+08:00

moodswing I'm having I suppose. Don't know for sure. Hahas. Just feeling a little down. Too much reading I guess. Or maybe more specificly, too much of Jane Austen. Her novels send people into deep reflection of many ethic issues, values of life. To add on the fact of finishing Mansfield Park in a sum of not more than three or four days was utterly mean. So I guess I got a little depressed, deleted someone from my contact list, re-added that someone under a different name. Ultimately, the point's that the thought of the someone hurt alot when I think of that person for just a second. Bored, quite bored. Finished making a coca-cola glass bottle of paper stars. Went to blogs and don't know what to tag. Hahas. the initial thought of just tagging 'tag' was put off after a minute of deliberation and I decided that I shan't tag. How mean of me but, it suits me down to my toes. Kinda like to ignore people at times ( pretty sadistic), yet desperate for attention the other(quite on the contrary). blah blah blah. shall bore myself by playing runescape.

2009-11-18T13:44:00.002+08:00

crappp... I realised that I can not upload the recordings that are to be sumitted. coz... it's not in my meomory card... sigh.. i guess i have to ask send someone then ask them help me upload then send to me. bloodyyy... sigh. al the best. to me. buahahaha.

2009-10-19T13:55:00.001+08:00

exams... were _____ (i dunno what to say) as usual. i think i screwed my english composition. then the others were so-so.everything is just like... depending on luck. but i don't have problems for most of it. well, i guess. sat was as per norm housework day. sun... my dad was at home so it was the day where all the furniture moved again. today is the day where i go crazy..hahas. tried out the sewing machine. nearly smashed the ass outa it. lalala~ i dunno wadda blog about. hahas. so... buhbye... *yawn*

2009-10-04T17:49:00.006+08:00

okkkay... i've realised that it's quite dead.. so quick update. a short one though. hmm. friday was tiring but fun? not exactly very fun but o well, think it's fun-ny. yarhhh... then we were all very tired when we went back to sch... all slept. but i was the one that woke up most. i cant exactly sleep on vehicles. hahas. ya. but i can sleep while walking... and climed stairs sleeping.. hahas. dangerous. but haha.lalalala. nxt time then give a thorough update. but overall it was a good experience. xP... some pics?

so it's kind of vv little. coz i didnt took much pics.hate my phone mahh

2009-08-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

so... yo? hahas. bored. tml. arh. sry. all my broken sentences. i doubt you got what i meant there.but oh well... looong time since i've blogged... and i'm bored. and tired. okays. what a weird thing to do when im tired. i'll probably be reading than blogging. and that crestar is killing me. tt kind of ting li.. i dun tink i will barely scrape throught it.lawls. then jojo there saying he got one question wrong for the whole thing when i got at least one or two for each section. kaes.not trying to say tt he's suaning me before he gets me for it again... lalala.

exhibition.. was... like what xinhui always say: 一阵冷风吹过。哈哈。真的是冷到。。。没话说。展览会表面上看起来是失败，但是我们已经尽力了。副校长也有到现场为我们加油打气，至少有三个居民过来参加。还有，我校的一些老师和NCC和Girls Guide 的一些学生来参加。所以不算是彻底的失败。我们不应该以树木来决定我们的成功或失败，而使公众的反应。虽然会觉得有点难过，觉得让民房部队和警署的人白跑一趟了。但这也是出乎预料的。至少我们有个漂亮的首场。每个人最后还是挂着一张笑脸回家。失败乃兵家常事。跌倒了就爬起来，从失败中学习。以后做得更好！所以大家不管在哪一方面都要加油！！！

今天就在此停“笔”吧。明天还等我去忙着呢。
祝大家睡个好觉，做个美梦…… 别从床上跌下来哦！

2009-08-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

kaess. decided to update. always wanna but somehow juz dun wanna. not in gd mood ytd. after i got home. ah-duh. quarrelled with my mum again.. messy table. she wan see wad's messy is it??? damn lah. always pack pack pack until my textbook all die liaoz. cant find my chinese textbook. my sec 1 history ws. wtf larhs. then my bro ding zui. tio slapped and hit till his nose bleed. abusive sia. then he rebelled. obviously. then my mum started saying what his eoy report bk come back muz get all A. wanted to stop my mum from hitting him.. but my dad there. i've got chance against my mum. cause the hatrad burns like fire in my heart. but my dad.. i still love him. a little. despite him increasing my chances of getting lung cancer for the thirteen past years. and my dad's too strong. i still cant forget the handprint he left on my arm for a few days a few years ago. hahas. and my mum started to question my bro who taught him to "fan kang" then my bro replied my dad. then my mum exploded. practically. tgt with my dad. can't blame my bro for giving such replies. afterall he has been exposed to violence even before he knew and understand words. watch violent stuff. played FPS. runescape. adventure quest, soldier front... and everytime he did something a little wrong he tio "whoot" like... lawls. he's juz a little fearless. tt's all. juz a little loud. juz a little rebellious. but they have not thought that he have become what he has due to them. they think's his exposure to bad influence all these kinda shit. he's smart. and i think he knows the right from wrong. he juz wan attention. like all three of us. my bros and i. we juz wan some attention. thus we seek for it. attention despo at home i guess. cause all they do is force us do homework, cook, eat, wash. watch tv together silently. you get a little mouthy trying to describe to them what happened in school and they practically ask you to shut up. they dont know how much it hurt. then when you dont reply them with a satisfying answer they start screaming their heads off and spanking us. attention the wrong way. but better than none. it's juz this. we've no one to care for us anymore. we dont get the attention we used to get from our grandmother. all we want is juz some communication. but it seem impossible to get through the barrier. cause they juz cant understand what we're saying. it's like our words are of some alien coded message... sigh... is it that hard. communication's screaming, scolding. care's getting whacked. love's the unimaginable silence... it all seems wrong. too wrong. can't she juz make up for the time lost? for the past 5-6 years.where i seldom even see her. only when she dosent need to work. can't she spend more time talking to us. instead of talking on the phone with her friends for hours. cant she juz spare that little bit. i've realised im considered lucky. at least i've got my dad.personnal time in the morning. telling me all the beautiful knowledge he knows. sharing it with me. at least he talks. proper. not like my mum. all she does is telling us three of us to die or to get all A's. life sucks this way. it really sucks. u cant be certain whether she's your friend or enemy. your mum or your satan.sighh. at least i've friends. thinking of her. juz hurts. alot. despite my hate for her. it still hurt. unkowningly. hurt... one minute she treats you like she's juz unearth some treasure. the next she treats you like a pest eating up her crops. crazy. life's crazy, mad, insane. wonder how long this will go on for...

2009-06-11T17:20:00.003+08:00

ages since i've updated my blog. cause. never in the mood to update. start off with ATC even though it's damn late liao. hmm... so-so.almost bored to death. missed all the activities. i've got to say. the night in the tent was spent talking through the night. disturbed the sirs and mam's and zhuang yi mam's falcom or talcom powder. then... the 2nd day. where all the activities took place. fell out and sit with darren frm grp 4 everywhere. sian. he injured his leg on the first day. rmb that that night huiping went home due to fever. after ATC. dying. [expressions only] go back gastric stomachache. all those erm. yea. got quite "sick". now. juz dun disturb me and im DAMN happy lerhs. sry. seriously not in a good mood. one of the lowest. okay. *pulls a poker face* it's that kinda no mood kaes. juz leave me alone for a while lurhs. hahas. suddenly.i realise im a fool that neglected some that cared so much for me. sigh. dun kill me for this. i noe someone wanna but. i really find myself a FOOL. nvm. dun wanna talk abt this. sighhh.

2009-05-15T10:47:00.002+08:00

whee...gettinbg bored. well...at the library now.lawls.later still need to go to school sian..):for sec 1math trail dry run..guinea pigs lorhs.still say what we're not the guinea pig class. say what is gr..isin't it all the same?but still sian. good luck to those that haven't finish D&T.hmmm..then.idk what to blog liao. math paper 2?screwed i guess at someparts. 没有好好的审题……sigh. guess i ought to learn my lesson lorhs. Due to my carelessness. missed my chance of getting full marks for quite a few times for math lerhs. since primary school...=.=best was 98 lorhs. and my mum was like. 很久没有拿这么高了hor.. sigh.she is the type that give you all the discouragement lahhs. used to it liao.. then.. all the other subjects so-so..no comments.juz realised that quite a few went anglican. lag rite?sigh.lag lag lag. back to my lagger self lerhs i guess. everything is mass lag!XPsigh.dunno what to say lerhs.hahas.buhbyes.see ya. next time. in a zillion years^^

2009-04-24T21:14:00.003+08:00

Guess this will be the last post before MYE. I guess I souldn't be doing this now but yeah. I'm getting quite sick if i hold this any longer. I wanna scream the hell outa me. Things seem so distant and blur. I'm back to the pitch dark burrow I've dug when I was depressed. And now i fall into my own dug hole again. What a fantastic thing to happen. Common test for chinese could not have killed me but my parents certainly would. Which is I decide to give both test papers for inspection together with the mid-year paper. My current plan. But I do not know whether it's gonna work. Mood swing today. Emo the hell outa me. Lost my upmost appetite. Miracle this is. A bottle or three quarts of it ( one quart finished off by tigger) and half or less that half a sliced guava for lunch. Reached home swallowing two dry pieces of bread covered in apricot jam which was horribly sweet. Then dinner. No appetite at all. But I still managed to swallow down one bowl of rice, forced one piece of chicken and a piece of potato. That's dinner. Less that one quater of what I normally eat. And I did not even want dinner. I just wanted the Lipton tea. I haven't been drinking water since the last sip I took from JoJo's water bottle, the pathetic sip of apple tea which i drank from JoJo's bottle too, another sip from Lim Jia Qi's water bottle, another small sip at the water cooler and yeah. My apple tea for lunch and the cup of tea I had for dinner. Getting dehydrated. ): Ought to get some water. But I guess not. Hmm. My mums working at Marine Parade tomorrow. Can't escape to Marine Parade library. Sad news. I can't study at home. Wanted to jog from my house to Geylang East Swimming Pool and then one whole big U-turn back. But, to add onto my sorrow, I'm suffering from an irritating cramp now. Getting exasperated. I wanna get outa this. Ughhh. Formal typing today I guess. Avoiding all the grammatical error? Can't seem to get my words right today. I'm getting emo. Getting dark. Just let me cool off. And harden, just like the formation of the cone of a volcano...

2009-04-02T21:46:00.002+08:00

sigh... sending the damn thing
which is..591MB.
*screams*
literally and practically.
sian lahh
next week...
TT
tml..
np.
eeekkk..
wish me good luck with the yang tinggi and belok.
hopei wont hai the squad.
cause keblakang pooseng and behenti i kinda rusty wwith it liao. i kinda forgot.
whhooops.

2009-03-29T20:07:00.003+08:00

im going....
nuts.
hahas.
没有你陪着我走，自然觉得很孤单。但是想着你，你，就似乎站在我身边。一路上就一直那么的想着你。一路上头都朝地上看。看到了马路上反射着灿烂阳光的东西，令我想起我们在一起那些快乐的回忆。那些在黑色的马路，衬托着精美的粹片……就像平淡无趣的生活，衬托了生活中最美好的时光。令人陶醉的笑容，可爱的脸蛋，温柔的关怀……这些因素都令我想在大热天里在你温暖的怀中撒娇.

2009-03-15T11:54:00.003+08:00

fine... got scolded liek shit. how the hell would i noe?i feel like answering yes but obliged to answer no.. more of juz keep silent and juz let her scream. last time take out all to wash she was there screaming too much. then now she say that the load not full watse water and blame that we are lazyy... hallo.. we're not like we can read her mind liddat. she only ask us to like take out the matress cover but not the bloster and pillow mah. not our fault rite. last time my grandmother is wash the pillow etc. cover together with the blankets mahh. then she never say need the pillow case all these then dunnid lahh. normally she got say need de mahhs. then this time i almost wanted to take out then my bro said'i thought she said matress cover only?' then never take out the others except all the matress cover lorhs. sianed. lame sia. then she stuff everything inside dunno that the other stuff are missing meh? then she asked whether we took out everything enver state what. so juz took the all as the matress covers. sigh. misinterpretation led scolding and critizim. not entirely our fault lorhs. everytime juz noe how to scold... wonder whether she need some sodium hydroxide poured into her head to neutralize the acidic corrosive environment sia. zzzz... sianed. they having camp. and im here sitting complaining. feel so evil+guilty... TT i wanna join them shou ku!! rahhhh.. going mad liao. gonna explode soon. go think of the script lerhs... and iforgotthe theme. nvm. sianed. =.= now everyday will kena scolded le lorhs. she everything also kan bu shun yan. now she 24/7 at home.im gg-fied. why didnt i rejoice before this horrendous downfall of such happenings?

2009-02-22T11:04:00.002+08:00

rawrr... dunno what on earth tis gal's doin now. nvm... hahahahhaas... rawrrr... english journal. not as bad as i think. heyyy.. too much antibiotic's bad too okay. never thought it's good. sigh. gonna see antother damned doctor. yl knows what i mean. and i think that's the cause of the dizziness. wtf. see what dunm green tartazine antibiotic did. damn. go ta do homework lerhs. cry and juz sleep off. i wish i could. thank you. you really helped me loads. dun worry bout me. and. take care. dun get too emo kaes. you've got me no atter what....

2009-02-15T17:54:00.002+08:00

for ONCE. im in serious business in studying english. and tis time, i think i mean it. lawls.. mad liao larhs. muz be the influence of hu arh? maybe liutian? envious of his good vocab. okay. maybe not very good to some but much better than mine. nvm. im here crapping all that stuff. decided to blog for once. lllllaaaaawwwwllllllssss.. nvm. crap. suddenly duno what to blog. ate abit too much chocolate. and it aint vv nice with tea ahhs. hahas. siiiigggghhh.. missing quite a few people lerhs. cried. again. dunno why. muz happen every two or three sundays.. muz cry for a while hug and smell my bloster and bawl like a baby with my face buried in my towel. then okay liao. bright and cheerful. i think liutian would call this mood swing. talking abt mood swing. huiying and yenling. go kill the ass off.. hahas. oh... yenling reminds me of zhenghui who calls her.......... i dun think i have to say it out. and i havent gotten over what he said. nvm. he's getting quite popular from offending people huh?nvm. dunno what to blog lerhs. got inspiration then continue. so for now. juz drop dead and pretend i said nothing. today i am weird. my words makes no sense. and quite difficult for people to understand.hmmmm... i shall type out in han yu pin yin. i told you i've gone quite maddd...

you xiang qi le ta. mei ban fa. jiu shi kan dao yi tiao sheng zi, bu shi pu tong de sheng zi, er shi yong lai xi bao zhen de na me yi tiao sheng zi. tu ran jian jiu na yang de ku le qi lai. jin tian ye liao jie le wei he ji nian qian zai jia li lao shi jin jin de ba yan jing tie zai lian shang. yin wei na shi de wo. hai bu tai hui yin man. na shi de wo, yan ji mei xiang xian zai na me hao. yin wei wo yi xiang lai, dou shi yi yan shen gou tong. lian shang ke yi wu biao qing dan wo na me yi ge yan shen que shuo ming le yi qie. bie gao su wo, xing qi ri shen me hai yao zuo gong. bie gen wo shuo. jiu bu shi yao wo kan jia zhao gu ta men ma? suan le ba. yao jiu zhi jie dia. fan zheng xin dou sui le. bu yao na me mian qinag de jiang. jiu zhi jie dian. bu hui jian yi de. fan zheng shi shi ben lai jiu shi zhe yang. bu xiang shuo xia qu le. yin wei you ge bai chi zuo zai wo pang mian ding zhe.

2009-02-07T11:12:00.004+08:00

almost started crying writing the damn damn reflection for np... wtf. dunn0 what went into me. juz.. i dunno it's called crapping or maybe it's really just my reflection or is it more like a complaint letter? i dont know. juz. write till like. more than one and a half page by pen liao... it feels like the end of the world where everything just seem as horrible. good or bad. those memories. those great times i had seems so far away. and it hurts so much just to think of the happy times. and just as much to remind me of the fucking mess my family's facing now. can anything juz be neutral? i know it's sorta hanging dirty linen in the public but i dont care anymore. i've bottled up enough things to create an atomic bomb to kill me. just me. and if i ever get dead it too affect the people around me greatly. that's my defination of an atomic bomb. ones that kills you and affect others. reading at the essay written by zheyu. i seriously dun understand the true meaning of it. but part of it leads me to thinking of myself. yea. i've decided to leave the past behind and git goin. but im always back to square one. the horizon between to stay in the past or move forward to the future and face it. why? cause im scared. scared of this damn reality so harsh. nothing's goin rite. nothing. whatever my mum is doing juz makes me worse. treats me like a princess or her most precious thing in her life this minute and like she hated me and wants me to get out and never come back the next. hey yenling. high five. guess we cant avoid our sister fate huh? miss ya.. miss the bouncing tigger who now is more overwhelmed by worries than joy. and i guess i better get going to cook lunch at twelve. WHAT IN THE WORLD IS SO GREAT JUZ BECAUSE YOU KNOW HOW TO COOK AND PREPARE LUNCH. wonder what's their fucking problem making a fuss over juz cause i know how to cook and prepare lunch and i got into chung cheng and not methodist girls school or dunman with my fucking score which seemed good to them and shit by my mum. what's the point. trying to agitate me? woah. fine. i dunno what kind of reflection im writing and i shall let them decide. cause i might be bias. pump me for all they want if they find the content disapproving. im just stating the fact. juz the plain old facts and problems we're facing since last year and too the dramatic change since last year till now that we cannot really cope with yet.

对不起，军杰。说以上的这番话我真的觉得很对不起。你不是没用，只是没能力帮我。因为这些决定，都赖在我自己，没人能为我做主。只想让你知道，你早已成为我还想活下去，盼望明天到来的希望。因为在我世界里，早已毫无意义。是你令我还想活下去。。。不知还要说什么，脑海里一片空白。军杰，我爱你。。。

2009-01-23T21:24:00.003+08:00

heyy.. okay. lemme juz. emo?发泄一下。last resort. miracle i decided to blog. lately. damn alot of things are happening. don't look forward to lunar new year. nope. not at all. feel horribly dumb compared to many other people.sigh. i ain't naturally smart or something.but maybe juz a ittle better than others. but i HATE this. simply juz HATE it. so what if i got a level position of 27?next time i drop. i'll only get scolded and screamed at. what's the bloody point of working so h.a.r.d?i HATE this. life sucks cause of tis. i mean it. STRESSED OUTso dont ya E V E R disturb me while im emoing. cause. err.. i can murder people. and i stress on the word murder. i don't think you'll like it abit. nope you won't.my bros had been beaten up by me till they cry before okay?dont think i dont dare. tis sucks. damn the competition. damn my marks. no matter how hard they try. they're the same. my style of studying's utterly different. not practice more. but read m0re. know how to use words all that stuff and the sentence structure. rawr.i never passed language sub. with flying colours ever since i came to sec. school.rawr... okays..i think im turnin in before i get any weirder than tis and crazier and before someone 把我吃了。still remember that. that's the only stuff i dont forget. things that he usually said.

2009-01-20T18:44:00.002+08:00

你不是真正的快乐

　　人群中哭着你只想变成透明的颜色

　　你再也不会梦或痛或心动了你已经决定了你已经决定了

　　你静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着

　　而回忆越是甜就是越伤人了

　　越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

　　你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

　　你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

　　把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

　　这世界笑了于是你合群的一起笑了

　　当生存是规则不是你的选择

　　于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

　　你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

　　你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

　　把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

　　你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合

　　我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

　　难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了然后才后悔着

　　你值得真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色

　　为什么失去了还要被惩罚呢

　　能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻重新开始活着

sighhh... guess it's totally like me. thankya for sending me tis song. sorta trying to slap myself to wake up now and like.. rahhh.. frustrated.. i am. my mum's insane. together sending me going mad with her. what a nice torture.. at home. im treated like nothing. like no one. no one. maybe more like a slave. really. then skool work. then np.. cant exactly take it anymore. but i'll take it. no matter what comes on. because of someone.thank you. i meant that. you gave me the courage. to at least think of how to face those things. and make me feel like livin on and staying alive. sighhh.. but it hurts, really. the nicer the memories. the worse i feel. sigh.. nvm. crapping. anyway. over hyper-ing means tt im going to become damn damn emo soon. so.. 做好心理准备。。kaes. dun wanna type on. buhbye.

2009-01-06T19:47:00.002+08:00

it sucks. life kinda sucks in a way or another. hey. dont bother about me. im confused. with my life upside down and everything happening so fast just like the milky way spinning at 600 000miles per hour if i didnt remeber wrongly. i hate this. everything new. and with my dad trying to get it into my head that im most likely anemic all that stuff it's like some fucking machine shooting out bullets at me. each event hitting me with such a big impact. maybe i dont like school to reopen after all.. but yea. everything has to happen. i mean. i cant avoid the damn fact that i have to go to school..
最近无缘无故很想撞墙。墙就有那么好撞吗？我为什么会变成这个样子？看起来就好像那么的虚弱，那么的。。。算了。。。好无聊哦。。。几乎每隔几天就伤风，可以说是几乎每天吧。。好可怜。。。吞伤风药吞得不耐烦了。。若是在以前的情况下，我早就疯掉了。。可是现在，疯掉这两个字我可不会轻易说出口。也不会像以前那样那么容易疯掉。算了。。我就是这个样子。想不相信由你。不想长大。。不想了解事情，不想面对事实，不想这么快就得面对社会，不想这些有限的日子那么快结束。好怀念童年的时光，管它只是些悲伤的回忆，但比起现在，这疯狂的我，是多么的好。至少不用担心这么多的问题。至少还可以以我还小的理由逃过某些事情。但现在，这一切已经结束了，是历史了。长大了。我真得很后悔当初想快点长大。我看我没有一次不是应为我没头没脑的举动而感到后悔的。好愚蠢。好笨。好傻。
这就是我。又愚蠢又笨又傻。

2008-12-31T19:09:00.002+08:00

okays.. almost when crazy exploded blah blah blah and died of heart attack juz now when i saw 1CR, monday, geog, chua chor loon. okays... but no offence... but i.. pity them sia.. but abt the new time table.. miss chan's still our form. english teacher. i dunno it'll be better or.. who der hell is ahmad hashikin and wtf.. dere goes our nice beloved miss latifah replaced by mr mcdonald.. rawrr..YAY!!! 刘老师still teaching us.. then lit is.. wee jer wen.. hmmm.. *unidentified person as far as i know*then.. why no three science??ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｉｔ＇ｓ　ｊｕｚ　ｌｉｆｅ　ｓｃｉｅｎｃｅ？　ｏｒ　ｗａｄ．．　ａｗｗｗ．．　ｎｖｍ．．　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｓｃｉｅｎｃｅ　ｌｕｒｈｓ．．　＝．＝ｇｔｇ．．　ｒａｗｒ．．．　ｊｕｚ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｉ　ｇｏｔ　ｈｅｒｅ．　ｗｔｈ．．　ｒａｗｒｒｒｒｒｒｒｒｒｒｒ．．．　ｎｖｍ．．　ｉｔ＇ｓ　ｌｉｋｅ．．

new year.. new stuff blah blah blah. more TESTS!!! ahhhh.. tt one is one of the worst lah. then the major exams.. pressurizing lurhs. for me.. d-uh.. chinese esp.. will GG. wahahhahas. hmmm.. then english.. 尽力而为．．．rawrr.. then.. to summarize everything i wanna say in a sentence.. ish every one a great year ahead.. resolutions. not to feel dizzy and all tt stuff getting sick all the time. and improve in results lahh. kaes. bomb exploding liao. buhbyes..

2008-12-26T17:57:00.004+08:00

一开始，我还以为这是一场梦。
因为我从来没想过这种是竟然会发生在我身上。
也因为我，第一次听到有人说他喜欢我，
也因为，没人那样的关心我。
也因为，我本来就是个不受人欢迎，
不受人注重的一个人。
但你，改变了我对自己一切的看法。
你让我知道，当我伤心时，不是世界末日。
你让我知道，有人愿意随时当我的耳朵。
你让我知道，不论在那方那时那刻，
你都会在默默的支持我，鼓励我。
你让我体会到，什么是爱和关怀，
人生真正的意义，而我。
不在孤单，因为接下来的路，
是两个人一起走，而不是只有我自己独行。
是你，让我知道至少还有你爱着我。
~~谢谢你，为我所做的一切。~~

2008-12-26T16:50:00.002+08:00

.so... as the request of sumone.. the squad outing.. hahas..hmmm.. went there a little later.. sigh... cause.. need to cook and do up the dishes for my damn brother lahhh.. T_T hmmm.. then.. went to bugis get present for huiying first.. hahas. cause that was the only time i can go out lahh.. then took MRT.. rawrrr.. tt one.. frm outrum park take to tanjong pagar to outrum park to habourfront.. ... then at bugis.. got squashed like.. pancakes? hahas.. so walk walk walk.. finally got to the water or whaterver.. then.. they were a tthe arcade.. hahas.. then took quite a long time to find that damn place...then found kaixiong and zhenghui 'suntanning' in the sun. then..went played at arcade.. which my dad say go there xue huai.. then. played photo hunt with xinhui.. watch her play the para para paradise... when going away i thought huiying said that some guy was staring at me.. rawrrr... then played that throwing game.. it was then which was wtf.. i sprained my hand there kaes? damn damn pro.. in the midst was it? florence come searching fer hy's wallet which was all the time with me?hahas.. then idk since when my damn indigestion started but yea.. it always happens.. =.= hmmm... then went to safari? they said we're gonna visit alvin and delvis? at tt point i was exclamation mark.. wth.. then what alvin was blah blah blah.. *no commments* but that place stinks. esp. where the hamsters lived. if they were hamsters... hahas.. hmm... then.. walk walk walk.. then hy and flo wanted to go to the cable car. and i needed to get home.. so yea.. frm there went home? lawls.. took bus 100.. which was like half an hour plus on the bus..but quite okay larhss.. cause got sumone pei wo.. hahas.. yep. thankyou!!! XDXD. you're much appreciated. (:hahas.. whee.. quite fun. more enjoyable without the indigestion. tt one will be much much much better... hahas.. got off the bus.. and walked a little.. and felt like.. FIANTING. yeps... hate it whenever it happens. np or normal days. told my dad and he said i pin xue.. and asked me whether i pin xue.. which made me send a wth how would i noe? hahas. yep.. hmmm... conclusion. anyday would be FUN as long as it's a squad outing with squadmates!!! cause we've got extreme hyper people and extreme quiet people and extreme sick people and extreme...etc. which makes us all UNIQUE! whee!!! sec 2 squad rawks!! XDXD

2008-12-22T16:36:00.002+08:00

boo!!! am broke+idk sia.. my savings always go to zero frm like.. 30+then zero then 30+ again then no more.. tis year most of it went to the bbq lahhs... hahas.. rawrrr.. nvm...then so much for the skool... buy tis and tt.. then my lost calculator.. the files blah blah blah.. and then still got like.. yea... np tee.. wahh.. tt one cost me a bomb sia. i dare not tell my parents. cause obviously will EXPLODE.. that's why all my savings like.. 不见。。 my bros have extra.. like thirty bucks. they spent it all lorhs... mine's kept by my mum.. [dun trust myself] hahas.. nxt year.. 10jan kolam ayer cc.. 16jan-friday.SGH.. ughhhh.. so much for the tartarzine coloured medicine.. it kinda sucks. wad a disgusting shade of green.. wonder what too much tartarzine can do sia.. too much of anything isint good fer ye health. lawls..hahahas... got a damn lot of early christmas present... 2 bags and a new wallet.. 4 cuts.. walao.. two bright pink patches of skin and two scars.. disability to type like normal... hahas.. then... 3times horrendous headache.. dunno how many times.. a week i get flu. i tink everyday sia...RAWRR...sianed.. tml.. the movie.. i tink.. i'll be..ROTTING.hahas.. idk lahh.. dunno waddda dooo.. boo!

2008-12-21T20:06:00.002+08:00

yo... am back.. with a few.. damn bad bad cuts... esp my middle finger.. =.= lawls.. three in total.. so much for like.. washing dishes.. yea.. damn the bowl from slipping from my hand.. and there... early christmas present.. not very appreciated..it hurts... while typing.. hope it stops bleeding.. everything's like upside down.. cant bathe properly.. zzz. well.. for sure leaving at least two obvious scar.. o.O cool sia.. jkjk.. lawls... kaes.. bak to the purpose c'min online.. to do biology lahh.. my cous printer no black ink.. then damn the graph... cant see a thing.. zzz.. miss ye guys loadz... and fer tuesday.. i dunno how ta open my damn mouth.. hahas.. seeking permission is almost equivilant to seeking death fer me. but yea. i'll try.. later.. kinda sucks.. with the middle finger sticking out oddly.. cant bend it.. or else i'll start bleeding again.. well.. cause it's at the joint.. nice lorhs.. a wooden chopstick will be appreciated to be tied there... yea.. tt one.. i meant it.. hahas.. no waterproof plaster!!! hahas.. so.. only elastic derhs.. so much fer hurting myself...

2008-12-16T09:19:00.002+08:00

...so much for ytd... nvm. sry i cant come today... ifi come today. i wont be able tml.. and it's like.. oh well..i dun even noe idf i can come fer squad outing lahhh... *another round of questioning* sigh.. they juz.. somehow dont trust me going out with my friends....yea... hahas. dun feel like talking abt tt. abt ytd...okay. contents down there. ye dont know who tt person is. and dun get too shocked. for the foul language used.

im freaking damn pissed by someone... rawr.. firstly she thought i was a maid. and... for the fact that.. i dotn like her at first sight. the look of a spoilt kid dressed over sexily.. lawls. like she's despo liddat. if she was at someplace.. i would have thought that she's one of em. it's like. juz go to her relative's house also like.. over-dressed.wearing shades. in the evening and at nite? .... and she's like.. i juz dun like her attitude. lawls. like she's damn pretty like that. action kia. if you're rich. you dont have to show it off to everyone to know that you are and let robbers target ye. i dunno what to say abt her.. cause seriously 无语... her bro's equally as bad. act exactly like a gangster.. hahas.. then heard from my mum's fwend tt she and her brother had a damn bad attitude that she cant stand? well... my mum's friend ask em not to buy those bombs and throw cause there's one neighbour that has heart prob and they juz dont listen... and it's like.. how can they be so selfish? i wanted to think that she was someone good but all her actions proved me wrong. *dissapointed* scaring little kids with the bombs and all those... i really.. tio shocked. and she gave me that. you're scared isit? look. and then when they saw their parents standing within sight, they run away. cowards. that's what i call cowards. not able to face up with their very own actions. and you dont open up red packets in front of everyone and start announcing how much you've earned today during the lunar new year.. you lack even of the basic respect. i wonder how you're brought up. and your parents standing arnd didnt even say a thing abt your horibly rude behaviour. well.. tis aint gonna do you any good. if you're smart. you dont ask people for their names. you observe around and find what people call tt person. if you want to know my name. then why dont you come directly up to me and ask. scared isit? so scared and "shy" that you have to ask your cousins or wass it my bro's for my name.. without asking anyone. i know your name. bitch.you dont even know what people are scolding ye. and you wanna get involved in a gang fite? and you dont know how to scold back either. pathetic. only noe how to call for backup. [i forgot how to scold all tt stuff a few years ago. after bein a p5prefect, those were no longer anyuse to me. lawls.] ohh.. i was shocked. yes i was shocked. cause i thought someone like her dressed up so nicely would know how to behave, like a proper young lady.. mann.. so lesson's.. “人不可貌相，海水不可斗量。” rawr... let's see who's gonna do better. the little spoilt brat or me. the maid. ye since im one in our eyes. i wont run away but admit. bitch....

2008-12-16T09:09:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOHUI!! abit.. nvm... hmmm... all the best for your results and hope you get into a good jc.. and.. a early merry christmas! XD

2008-12-13T12:24:00.002+08:00

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2008-12-04T13:47:00.003+08:00

1. person who tagged you :
yenling
2. Your relationship with 'her' :
friends,sisters,squadmate. XD
3. Your 5 impressions of 'her'?
a) hyperactive
b) BOO!!
c)CHIO BU! XD later she come after me.. but.. lawls.
d) cute
e) loves the mirror. [wonders if she polishes it too. o.O]
4. The most memorable thing 'she' has done for you?
boo-ing! lawls... and EEYORE!! trying to cheer me up cause i kept emoing at sometime
5. The most memorable thing 'sh'e has said to you?
err... the couselling part?
6. If 'she' becomes your lover, you will?
not les!!! and......
7. If 'she' becomes your lover, the thing 'she' has to improve on will be?
dun be so high..
8. If 'she' becomes your enemy, you will?
hmmm... no idea.. cause.. she NEVER will
9. There is no spoon question.
o.O. wad's a spoon question in the first place?
10. What do you want to tell 'her' now?
sian-ed. you're lucky that i responded to this one. casue i seldom do quizzes..
11. Your overall impression of 'her'?
BOUNCING TIGGER!!!
12. How do u think people around you feel about you?
dunno?quiet?[that's the most popular comment. trust me. my relatives says so too]
13. The characteristics you love about yourself are?
idk... the STM is most appreciated at times?
14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are?
ssllooww and such nice academic results. good results that pressurize the shit outa me.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
the hyper side of me! (:
16. For people that care & like you, say something to them.hi. bye.tag 10 ppl WHO HAS A BLOG ! (lazy tag. YOU'RE TAGGED !)
1)yenling
2)florence
3)huiying
4)alvin
5)ziting
6)kaixiong
7)calvin
8)jocelyn
9)me...
10)huiping
18. Who is no. 6 having a relationship with?[kaixiong]
wanting bahhs
19. Is no. 9 a male or female?[me]
neither. lawls. jk... obvious rite?
20. If no. 7 & no. 10 are together will it be a good thing?[calvin&huiping]
idk.. ask em yourselves bahhs
21. What is no. 2 studying?[florence]
anything that she dunno abt alvin? jk.. the same subjects as me?
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?[huiying]
hmm.. i forgot.. gues it's ages ago...
23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?[jocelyn]
idk..
24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?[yenling]
no...
25. Will you woo no. 3?[huiyng]
...wth.. whatfor?
26. How about no. 7?
NEVER..
27. Is no. 4 single?[alvin]
florence? hahas
28. What is the surname of no. 5?
KHOO!
29. What are the hobbies of no. 10?[huiping]
hmmm... sadly i dont know
30. Do no. 5 & no. 9 get along well?[ziting and me]
d-uh.. if not we'll be fighting every lesson. lawls.
31. Where is no. 2 studying at?[florence]
chung cheng high [main]
32. Say something about no. 1.
hyper
33. Have you tried developing feelins for no. 8?
huh?in terms of friends? yes? lawls..
34. Where does no. 9 live?[me]
sianed...10min walk frm aljunied road...
35. What colour does no. 4 like?[alvin]
zzz.. florence's the encyclopedia man
36. Are no.1 & no. 5 best friends?[yenling and ziting]
i dunno?
37. Does no. 1 have any pets?[yenling]
err.. no...
38. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?[calvin]
CHIO BU!!!
39. what is no. 10 doing now?
no idea? zzz... not her 24/7 cctv camera..

2008-12-04T08:22:00.002+08:00

going whee~ idk whad i talkin abt.. lawls.. hyper? idk lahh.. not after that damn damn irritating nitemare... i would have appreciated for yenling not to ask me so much... cause remingding me of it simply almost made me go crazy... [i dont mean the normal case of it. but i really go crazy.. so tis day has finally come huh?] lawls.. at least i dont now. or someone will zhao yenling suan zhang.. lawls. hu knows what'll do when i go crazy.. obvious.. so dun sae...whee.. hand over the com liao. i surrender.. hahas. lawls. buhbye..

2008-12-02T21:23:00.003+08:00

hmmm.. continued.. was welcomed by the sun rising..farewell... was the sunset.. miss the place so close to nature.. lawls.. hmmm.. back home. first thing i noticed.. hot like shit. hmm.. at the corridor.. smelledl like the zoo..sucks. at home. smelled like it's been locked up for a billionwillion years. stinks. lawls. extreme sensitive nose and tatse buds i have. damn true.my mum get pissed off by me sometimes. cause im err.. complaining it's too sweet and salty almost everyday. juz wanna be left ALONE. do not disturb.. really. not in the mood to talk. i've locked myself up. in my own world. so.. no use trying to force open the door. for im the one unwilling to unlock it. cause.. i forgot how to..and i aint prepared. to face all those things again. nty. i dun wan another minute of going crazy. i mean it. the last time.. i almost ran up to the rooftop and jumped down? sounds ridiculous... but it's true. crap crap crap.. roar.. well.. what i think now.. emoing is a hundred million times better than letting me go crazy.. as i think i know what i'll do? lose control of myself. and i think you'll never see me agian? i guess nobody wants that to happen but my enemy..which is idk who that person is...emo.. juz leave me alone.

2008-12-02T21:01:00.003+08:00

至少我最近没哭。。。因为不不知道什么叫做痛。或许我又要回到从前的那个世界，那个感受不到任何喜怒哀乐的世界。好不容易才从那个地狱般的地方逃脱，我又要回到那里。我的世界，与外界无关，逃避事实。闭上眼睛，想起了你。。。对着空气发呆，眼泪不知不觉地流下来。回想起那美好的回忆，却是那么痛苦的一件事。。好想把你从记忆中删除掉，但是。。我办不到。那些回忆，大部分都是些吵吵闹闹的情景。只知道，因为它。差点在外国跳楼自杀。。因为我失去了理智，完全分不出清白。只想逃离这个世界，永远不会来。可能这就是我变得这么安静的原因。不知道，我知道，我什么也不想知道。或许不知道，会快了一些。。很感谢我妈，把家务事全都扔给我，至少我现在不会胡思乱想。去干傻事。听说小时候的我，是我现在的一百八仙完全相反。我的改变，有那么大吗？好像只记得现在的事，以前的都全部忘掉，做个没有记忆，历史的人。。明天的我，将会是怎样的呢？心理现在很惭愧，因为某人现在为我而伤心。我不值得你们的关心。我已不属于我。忙忙碌碌的城市生活，已经把我逼得快透不过气来了。心里感到有点埋愿与恨。为什么？一开始你就不该出现在我面前，现在分离。。。事件非常痛苦的事。。。希望这回忆，会跟着时间慢慢的淡化，忘记。。最近忙？这只是好听罢了。。事实是，我不敢面对这个世界。。事实，有时候不知道会比知道更好。逃离现实。。我唯一的愿望。。

2008-11-30T18:03:00.002+08:00

hmmm... after two weeks.. im more.. anti social.. quiet and weird..hmm.. so... i like tea? nvm. im welcomed by my two uncles at the airport. dunno why. i find them damn damn familiar. weird. first time seeing them. yet they're so freaking familiar that it scares me. and for the fact that i feel at home? totally weird. cause the environment there is totally different. apart from freezing sometimes. lawls. hmm. and im able to stay up till one plus chatting.. lawls.. lawls.. lawls.. lawls.. hahahahahas.. weird weird weird weird. hmmm.. so i went there and was greeted by the sunrise.. preety. soft, yet warm. fished.. i didnt. dunno how.. hahas. snapped a damn lot of pictures. cause damn wu liao. im antisocial. yay! lawls.. comments: too quiet.. blah blah blah. hmm.. found out that when i was young, tio fever till my hands and legs turned purple/white.. HAHAS. then went to the hospital.. while wating. recovered. LAWLS! hmm.. lota funny things.. then for the first time i went on bouncy castle or is it bouncing castle? idk. but yea. smashed onto the errr.. "floor"?that was the only time i played with them.. age diff.. or personality diff? dunno. my cousins that are one year older and younger than me was able to interact with them.. hahahahs. im like.. really anti social.. hahahahahahas.. sian.. sian.. sian.. sian.. hmm.. over there is like. air damn damn fresh.. and err.. GREEN. yea really. and i like the dirt road? bumpy rides. lawls. you can like.. "fly" off the seats.. fun rite. hmm.. i like to seat at the back of the car.. fro putting stuff and not for seating. and my head got cracked.. hahas. keep hitting it. pain obvious. but shuang. ytd also mahh.. but i didnt sit at the back. sit in front. leaned on the car door.. and my head got hit dunno how many times. lawls. hu cares.. fun sia.. hahahhaas. muz be mad mad mad.. went to 克隆千树园，绿岛山庄or something，潮州人民广场，塔山[cant really rmb the name of the places fully. cause quite long..] 千树园…… 明显吗，里面就有很多的树和花。pretae.. lawls.. hmm.. 潮州人民广场.. go see fountain.. the water shoot up to like highest is 20 storey high? then 绿岛.. go visit there. nature! hmm.. yea. and the equipments and tools used by farmers last time. 塔山... 不知道要怎么说。。总之就是山。。看风景吧。。

the people there is like.. damn 热情.. bonded.. united. lalala. for the first time i find dogs cute? lawls. XD next time then continue bahhs.. goin for dinner i tink. hahas buhbye

2008-11-14T11:00:00.002+08:00

to be kind huh? update at least before i go... yea.. siann diao. wanted to update earlier. then almost died of the stupid cramp.. sighh.. new sim card!!! bleh.. i forgot what's the numberr. hmmm.. but someone knows. hahas. so much for the repeated letters behind. hmph.. my bro getting psp sia. 没有我得分。。。 nvm.. cause i know i feel much happier this way. because of.. dun wan say.. hahas. hmmm.. so gg? i dunno lahh.. but in any case.. IM AWFULLY SORRY THAT I CAN'T MAKE IT TODAY. be it my parents don't allow or my cramp.. 我对不起你们。。rahh.. that time already like.. miss out on alot lerhs. then now can't make it. i feel so guilty.. i'll see whatever i'll bring back huh? [see whether i can give piglet, tigger, pooh and roo the mice. or porcupine. or.. whatever..] dunno lahh.. gg sia. it's like.. so many ppl come to my house lately.. full house. almost expoded with jo jo's greeting. kept running around wildly. hahas. that cute little puppy.. ytd. my 大伯，大伯母，二伯，二伯母，小姑，jun hao, jun he and my mum's friend. oh yea. and jo jo.. hahas. DUN 误会。。。 dont feel like explaning.. hahas. lately abit.. sigh.. hahas.. whee~ i'm outa your radar for now. oh yea. florence.. now can sms me lerhs. juz dunno what's my phone number now. lazy go check. later then inform ya. hahas. (: but yea. i'm not in shape. hahas. juz hope that i dont get flu.. cya people. i will miss ya. ): but yea. i'll come back de lahs. i don't wanna study there can. they are ten times more competitive than us. serious. and i can promise that i will fail all subjects. maybe except for english, so much for my mum suggesting me to study there. i immediately replied no of course. im not some dumb person to be cheated by her. hahas. that was lame. sighh.. cya! i think i'll come for squad outing no matter what. XD cause i'll die. hahas. not seeing all of you for so long..

2008-11-12T07:17:00.004+08:00

lemme die... seriously. cant take this any longer. please stop this. im going crazy. you've been asking me whether there's stress when im studying. then let me tell you that at home. the stress im having is like a bomb. it's killing me. compared to a normal bomb. it's power of destruction is magnified 10 times by you people. making things worse. really... go back to where yo ucame from. back to where you truly belong, your home. dont ever come back. tis place's not for human beings. but for people who wants to have their life shortened by ten to twenty years. lemem enjoy the suffering alone. ot's better to suffer alone compared to two right? you asked me why i cried when you two're in a row. then i shall answer. because you're making me go mad. you're tearing me apart. you thought that that has nothing to do with me at all. no. you're totally nuts. you've got no feelings at all. get the hell outa my life. or maybe i should run outa it huh?i dunno. but i really think that's it's my tun to say this. wait. till one day.. when i cant take this any longer. i'l get out of this place. forever. dont worry. if i wanna die now. i juz have to squeeze some lotion or the cream in a cup and mix it with water and drink it down. for your information. the cream's poison. yea get what i mean? 毒药。go back where you truly belong. even though i still wish for your presence.. but i know that i wont feel any better with you around. hearing and witnessing her treating you like nothing. firing her temper at you whenever she wants. im glad that you're going back. at least life's better there, no one to pick on you. juz leave me alone for a while. and maybe i could get used to your absence. and get on with my life. no. i could never do that. getting on with my life. she's out to obstruct and make things a hundred times more difficult. with one punching bag gone. im their target. a simple task could be made complicated by dunno how many times thanks to them. shut up and let me go. stop telling me that getting a degree or whatsoever is important. you're not helping this way. not at all. juz finish your crap and get out of my sight. i dun wanna see ya agian. i dunno what will happen when i see ya. your face. it juz reminds me of a murderer out to hunt me down. thinking of you. im filled with hatrad. nothing else.

2008-11-11T15:36:00.003+08:00

121th post. anyway... i died juz now. thanks. for whatever i wanna thank you for. dunno le.. nvm... lemme get to the point...

today... yea yea... was dragged up. still wanna sleep.. lazy mahh... then in the end.. sigh... bathed. went downstairs for breakfast... then... dragged myself to otrum[suddenly forgot how to spell] park... walked into SGH... okay... died okay. 脚软了啦。。。那医生把我吓成像只老鼠一样。。T_T 我知道不可以晒太阳。不要一直提醒我吗，很难受的。。so.... the results... if ya ever wanna know... TWO BLOODY MONTHS OF GREEN PILL TO CONSUME... [当时很想把医生给杀了，想叫他闭嘴] so... three bottles of cream and lotion... [让我死吧。。。] hmmm.... and i will get killed if i am rebellious this time round... $SGD25 for consultation fee... $SGD84.88 for the lotions and cream and capsules... $SGD14.61 for the prescribed washing errr.. forgot how to put it. but i guess you ppl should know huh... dying man... siao liao. and oh yea... sixteenjanuarytwothousandandnine, friday, threethirtyp.m. another appointment [晕过去。。。]

all the best to me(:

2008-11-10T12:35:00.001+08:00

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2008-11-08T19:12:00.002+08:00

sigh.. if i say im fine. muz be lying. how can i be FINE? cause err.. lately. juz had been cryin the shit outa myself. yea. bein frank here. cried like siao juz now. tis morn i guess. i dun wanna say much here...

2008-11-05T10:38:00.004+08:00

sigh!!! later going to dunno dunno what and who's house... i think it's my grandma's aunt dee dunno what the what. summarize:some distance relative i guess.. and i think i gotta wear a skirt there. up to me. budden... is like... if i still wear jeans.. my mum will sure kill me. cause she say that i dont dress like a girl. dont even have a proper DRESS. almost said wtf when she asked me to wear a dress when i go overseas... somemore it was err.. red and white striped... hahahahahas. *vomit* die also wont wear. i wanna throw away then she dont allow say what i dont even have a single piece of dress... T_T hmmmm... will die lahh.. hope i WONT bump into yenling. she says that she'll tear up the skirt... hmmm... so piece of advice. dont ever wear a skirt during a squad outing unless yenling's not going... hahas.. sigh... fav jeans sacrifised... my mum say to bring some nice jeans there... and obvious leave it there rite?? so now. my ermm.. yea.. xin tong sia. my fav jeans. dont mind givin away my skirts lahh. but my jeans sigh.............................................. ohh.. so sian siao rite?? sad sad sad sad sad sad.. okay. hahahs. at least some nice jeans are left behind. 7/8 of my jeans already gone there one way or another. shipping. in the luggage or somethin. now most of my jeans are those that are... 1. oversized. 2.the ones that i hate. SIGH... maybe im gonna go into a new trend huh? skirts? 3/4 pants? dunno lah. see what clothes my cousins pass on to me... hahhaahahahs. yea. what i wear is totally dependant on what others give me... cause the only clothes my mum buy for me, during new year.. are those barbie or wadeva... those that i say it's nice she say not nice. then those she say nice is those what barbie and what fairytopia blah blah blah blah. until i wanna tu xue. she say what now you still young mahhh.. so i HATE going out with my mum kaes. it's like.. hahahas.. 闹到翻脸。wheeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think i gonna do something else lurhs. since not manny people are online now. and i'll be somewhere in singapore this whole afternoon but not with the com. so postin now.hahas. ytd. was like.. 唱反调with my mum... make me wanna laugh. then my dad and i gang up. XDXD. it's seriously rare that my dad and i can gang up against someone. then kept making the visitor lauuuggghhh. my dad said that i am a 怪胎.. cause i can only do housework with my right hand and carry heavy stuff with my lef.t hahhas. left dominant brain. not good at writing and composing.... hahahas. siao dee... maybe that's why. my dad the history like damn good. eveyrthing also know liddat. (:(: then was like.. listening to him talk... i promise that i wanna take history and geography!!! nice what.. and o'levels art. if i could ever ever cope with it. my dad says he's gonna wash his hand off my choice of subjects this time round. and my mum warned me abt my english and chinese. o_Oi shall see what will happen.. obviously i know that failing english is equivalant to failing EVERYTHING. my mum dont have have to remind me abt that. wahahahahas. XDXD cyaaaaaa... i miss the smell of chlorine (:(:(:

2008-11-04T10:40:00.002+08:00

rahhh... i dun wanna be a puppet any longer. no, not in their hands. I've had enough. What is the point? what's the point of making and forcing me to study so unwillingly. what's the point of getting good results when you're not happy at all. why, why go through all these. to get a proper job? muz a proper job involve such things? i mean. dont people who didnt really get very good grades also made great achievements in their lives? i dont get it. making me study, good manners, behaving. thank you for teaching me all these. but do you know that it has cause much pain than happiness in me? sigh.. really. i wish that things are much simpler. it's all too late. there's no turnin back now. so live the life it is suppose to be now huh? yea. i guess that's the only way. i juz have one request. not to be your puppet any longer. a game of tug-of-war is finally comign to an end. but another chapter of living under the same roof's gonna start. one, that will be much worse than the tug-of-war. the only difference is. im no longer the middleman. but the one at the end. my dad will be the middleman this time huh. but do i care? NO. i so wanna let them get a tatse of being in the middle. the tatse of getting ripped apart. the tatse of getting both sides hollering at you. you juz caint take sides can you? one your parent another your grandparent. what ya want me to do? it's a miracle that i've sustained till today. the years of bein the middleman is finallyending. im glad. yet losing another person. makes my heart shatter into pieces... but there's no way. we just cant control things. let things be the way it is. juz live it the way it is. it's time to accept reality girl...

2008-11-03T10:48:00.003+08:00

hmmm... then after that... walked into school lorhs. the sky waz preety... hahas.yea.. then reached skool.. and huiying was screaming her head off not bringing my present??? =.= i dont mind anyway.. you still can give me during acticity mahh.. zzz.. .yea.. then the day.. waas only one word to describe.. INSANE. practically ran around th skool like a zombie... dehydrated. lost two water bottles. one was somewher eround the backstage.. but cant find. and didnt bother to.one was i think at 4 EP bahhs.. rahhh damn it.. hmmm... then the actual performance... forgot to play the part where the fairy came out. paiseh lahh.. dun really noe how to use laptop dee mouse and that part damn fast.. so.. never play. hahas. lucky teacher never scold. so in the end.. hahas, got like... my clothes back. lesson learnt. never gonna bring my clothes to skool again.. err.. abit hard to get back.. hahas. CHONG YONG... youbetter return miie the shirt when skool reopen... hahas... then walked otu of skool.. my feet was hurting. YAY!!! (:(:(: hahas. almost slept while walking.. really. wished i could lean on someone's shoulder.. hahas. or like... err... where's my pillow sia? i dont mind sleeping on the floor. really. hahas.sleeping on the floor's damn cool can.. slept in a tent on the sand at east coast b4... damn nice. the hard and cool ground. o_O nature.. hahas... hmm... almost got myself scared like crazy.. hehes. cause i almost slept on the bus. then woke up.. "wth.. where the hell's tis place???" hahahahahas.... then in the end it wa somewhere in the middle of geylang.. nvm.. crap.. then realise it was quite near the MRT station. so i was like. cant sleep lerhs. hmmm reached home. round ten plus.. hahas. then tooka bath and threw myself at the matress.. didnt bother to dry my hair. and ya know whay. my matress.. now.. only left half of the space!!! wth.. cant even erm... turn and face another direction properly.. cant wait till i get my own room.. and my bro.. sometimes still squash his fat leg over at my matress... hahas. obviously he dies lahh.. sometimes i beat him up until he wakes up... muahahahahahaa. evil mahh.. but to him. it's not pain at all.. in the enfd i wake up with my handgetting blue blacks. nxt time should use weapons liao. muahahahahahas... dunno what to post liao. rack my creative juices. later got story then write.

2008-11-02T19:26:00.002+08:00

YO!!! okkayysss... decide to update errr.. finally? hahas... hmm.. the only nice thing to post abt is.. DRAMA NITE a.k.a HALLOWEEN a.k.a MY BIRTHDAY!!! woots~ hahas... so... hmm.. can say. since thursday morning when i wake up, i didnt sleep till around friday nite around 10+ hahas... abt 37 hours without sleep!!!break record sia... cause i erm.. muscle pain.. sigh.. dont it always happen to me?? err... yea.. cna pbe so painful that i can cry... hahas. then... walk around the house.. took out the sketch book and started drawing... lalala~ then woke up damn damn early.. WAIT. i dont even need to wake up. cause i didnt even sleep... then forced myself to eat breakafst.. in the end.. 20 min later... then.. hahas.vomit it out. what the heck. forced myself to eat a piece of bread then only manage to finish half and like.. .. sigh.. next time then continue.. "THANK YOU" rahhh.. those !@#$%

2008-10-28T21:34:00.001+08:00

Your EQ is 120

You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

On an average day, you're quite happy, together, and content. You live your life well.

Your emotions aren't always stable, but you can go along with the ups and downs pretty well.

You tend to be motivated, energetic, focused, and level headed.

You see the world pretty rationally, and you don't tend to over dramatize things. When things are bad, you know they eventually have to get better.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2008-10-28T20:22:00.041+08:00

rahh... hahas. some things to crack sum jokes on.. go on..

2008-10-23T20:07:00.002+08:00

dunno what to sya.. dunno what happen to me.. im really confused.. AHHH!!!! i wanna jus scream off and run away... i wanna hide. but i only know that hiding's not gonna solve anything. neither am i gonna solve anything... i really dont know what to do.. rahh.. screams... i dont like this at alll... not at all.. cant i just like... be myself last time and start scolding an making things better???? i mean.. self counseling. this time really dosent seem to be workign.. not at all... mayvbe am also to emo to give myself such talks. RAHHH.. wish someone would lecture and scold me now... anything also can. dont mind even if it was the DM.. I SERIOUSLY DON'T MIND AT ALL... juz someone to scold me for nothing i very happy liao......

thank you.

2008-10-22T19:58:00.003+08:00

happy??? sad??? the holidays.. most of the time i'll be grieving... sigh... can't help it... i'm fretting already. what can i get till? am i really that weak??? rah... 心理现在很烦。。。很像一个人躲在一个偏僻的角落，却也很害怕一个人哪孤独的感觉。不知道该怎么办。。。我又是不是走进了一个迷宫? 好乱，好烦。。。

2008-10-21T17:49:00.003+08:00

yo!! lately abit crazy liao.. wahhhaahahaahs. tyl today really in a very bad mood. hahas. so my rubberband got snatched once agian... ... the meet hte parents' session.. got letter C... and my dad and mum both not free... but... but... they wanna ask my aunt go instead.*faint*alot of people already mistook me for their daughter.. but yea. nvm...dun care abt tt liao... but if my uncle tags along.. i pity whichever matured guys he meets lorhs. he'll start talking. but hu cares... tt person is in his erm... unlucky day? he'll never talk to ppl like zh lahhh... immature little imp.. IM LAMING. nothing better to talk abt...

walk home with my shirt half tucked otu today... then rmb i must be that “乖女孩” in my neighbourhood so... fold in. ... if not one of my ex-classmate's mum see or my bro's classmate or ex-classmate's the parents see me liddat.. WAHH.. i gg... im kns popular... [which is so not a good thing] that damn incident [if you know what happened erm.. a few years ago to me] that happend spread through the neighbourhood like wildfire okay. those extremelycrappy ppl. nothing to do then gossip gossip gossip. kinda gald some of them moved away lerhs... but the neighbourhood have becomed creepy and dangerous.. cause my house is quite near geylang huh? err... okay lahh.. but within walking distance.. loads of labourous movin in.. wth... already have quite a few ppl sleeping downstairs for the past so many years.. CREEPY!!! gives me one of them when im walkinf along the void deck alone at night after np making my way home.

lallalalalalala. smile ppl. SMILE! (: im bein lame... but yea. i like to see ya feelin happy... lemme continue chopping huh? buhbyes.
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2008-10-14T19:30:00.002+08:00

刚刚被骂到臭头。。。 T_T 只应为华文与英文成绩不太理想而以吗。高级华文我抱的期望不太高。反正小学高级华文的成绩也是一般吧，应该是很差才对，所以没什么好惊讶的。英文就不用说了，还不是跟小学没两样。。。历史成绩告诉他们，他们却好像没听到似的。。。只顾着我考不好的科目，他们还不知道呢。我的王牌在后头。哈哈。评语：不够认真，用电话比读书的时间来的多，没温习。大概是这样吧。。没什么大碍，只是心被割了一刀，哭了一下下。没事的。

假期应该陪着鸿锦我在图书馆里吧。。。我要读书了。。不能再让成绩这样的退步下去。会死的。

2008-10-13T16:33:00.001+08:00

rahhh... crazy liao lorhs... my mum cause of my damn english mark wan kill me liao... now wan send me for tuition... eh.. i belong to anti-tution organization kaes... sry. jkjk... no such thing lahh

2008-10-09T11:36:00.000+08:00

i declare that i've decided to play runescape today... zzz.. i noe im lame. so... off i go to play runescape... whee~

2008-10-08T16:04:00.002+08:00

yo... sigh... torture starts tomorrow. i think's that's what they said... but yea... dunno when officially start.. dun feel like typing..

2008-09-19T17:49:00.002+08:00

hmmm... yay!!!! big big big achievement... got full marks for physics!!! [tyco derhs. i swear] hmmm.. then bio... got 33/40 for the two combined... yay!!! 2nd/3rd dunno lehs... kohyanling got marks error. so it's either she's second im third or we're both second.. im crazeh.... math.. im so gonna aim for the best. in anycase... i've sorta given up hopes on it le... i seriously cant be bothered for math lately..hahahhahahahhahahaha.... seriously high lately.. whee.. i crazy le mahh... wahahas. in anycase... i finally got something to gag my dad up and stop him from saying "你跟我注意一点啊!"YAY!!! i finally won. for once. my physics.. aiya... cause moments of force is much simpler compared to other topics... lallala~ i shall go and wander around for now...

2008-09-17T18:09:00.002+08:00

wth!!! juz now was practically a suffering... pain like shiit.... my erm... left chest was like? dunno what happen.. but in anycase... dunno whether it's the bone or whatever. lalala... the pain is still... within 可以容忍的程度... so yea. AM EXTREMLY GLAD THAT IT'S GONE... finding disco music... for the CSD thing... even though jia qi say she's got one but still... i think it's safer.. to find more. in case the teacher dont like... [im still the one in charge of music after all] do my hw at nite.. cant do much now so... lalala... study later also.. i promise i will... i dont wanna fail...

2008-09-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

lalalala... realy... work not up to standard... everything not up to standard. not up to my usual self. even not so picky abt graphs lerhs... [when even one mm is like a vv big mistake to me last time] kaes...blahblahblahblah... tanqiaowen is CRAZY. she's not going crazy but is already crazy that's why she's sitting here not studying for her chem test and crapping. kaes. im seriously not in the mood to study RIGHT NOW. really cant... cause exploding... seriously... i take in a word and i'll say byebye to myself... whee~

2008-09-14T08:04:00.002+08:00

really have gone crazy lately... even studied for english [miracle have just happened here] and ytd was DRAGGED to tt dumb mid-autumn festival celebration cum speak mandrin campaign and the distribution of mooncakes and pomelos to needy residents. DUMB. practically went there reluctantly...[obviously] so yea. was stupid. the part when tt program havent started... they played some music awfully loud. tt's fine... but then they played doraemon. =.= wth can? then was practically tio stunned there..and only one comment on that event... BORING until i could have just rot there. not even wild horse would drag me there ever again... NEVER. hehes. then my dad was too, bored... so he brought us out... and took a walk. to NTUC... =.= and then was suppose to get a drink... and my dad took a mickey out of us about having all of us to drink beer... freaked me out... but in the end he couldnt find some cold soft drink and decided to let us drink milk instead... =.= i dont appreciate having soft drinks. esp gassy ones... hate it. but yea. this time round, i dont know whatever that happen to me but i didnt feel well after drinking the milk... it's way far from the expiry date...

as usual.. my table's at sixes and seven and my mum wanted to come after me. guess i'll be in hot water if she found out that my SIM card is... erm... i wouldnt wanna tell that ridiculous story here. it's pretty stupid. whee....................................... i really should go study lerhs. and yea. i aint emoing... im okay lerhs...

2008-09-09T19:40:00.002+08:00

不知道明天我又会是怎样，不知道我会悲伤到什么时候。我始终还是走不出那阴暗的世界。那人所对我造成的伤害，直到今天还是无法忘了那事件。还没把那伤心的历史从我心中删除掉，另一个可怕的事又即将发生，不知能不能承受这次的打击。将来会是怎样，我不敢想，应为那似乎就是一个恐怖的恶梦。有时候希望自己是个小女孩，单纯，幼稚，每天过着无忧无虑的生活。懂事，有时候就是一种折磨。我好像已经迷失了自己的方向，不知该往哪里走才是正确的选择。

2008-09-06T18:35:00.003+08:00

YO!!!!!! YAY!!! everybody passed LCP test!!! kaes... it's something to be yappy abt...

kaes... during LCP wasnt feeling alright. and tt started after tt uniform check stuff... wait... in between uniform check wasnt even feeling vv well liao... but still can focus... but halfway through drilling really cannot take it liao... so fall out and rested... in the end... my hands and legs got numb... =.= thanks jiaying SI, xiaohui and huiying... or else idk what happened to me lerhs.

2008-09-05T17:57:00.003+08:00

ouch...suddenly my head hurts... wth... why am i such a weakling? whywhywhy??? i seem to give in to myself cause i've no courage to move on? sry... cause... i'm a crapping!!!

kaes. today. didnt really feel well... i came without breakfast... cause there was precisely nothing to eat at home... then was practically blur diao... im blur, i lag, i felt numb, i felt like vomiting despite having nothing for breakfast. T_T

tml the LCP test the drills i more confident lerhs... but abt the knots and lashings... try my best.. :) whee~
see ya ppl tml. whee~[or when skool re-open] hahas. XD
i love you

2008-08-31T14:45:00.002+08:00

kaes.. wth... i wanted to sweep the floor... was requested to what. so ask my ittle impy bro go keep his toys. he was playing with it can? then got one piece he dun wan keep then he picked it up and started throwing at me. wth rite. then later he took the long cylindrical container tt are used for storing shuttlecocks and practically threw it at me. hit part of my chest and my hand... and the hand tt part under the top most layer the skin seems vv red... then the hand and part of it swelled up a little. wanted towhack him lah. but lt reddish part will turn into blue black i think... hope it will lah. but normally tt's the case lorhs. at least it's no longer swelling and tt pain now. if it is arh... he'll die. dun dare to hit him. cause later i'll die cause idk what my parents will come after me with... broom? feather duster? clothes hanger? bamboo pole? or the one used to take the bamboo pole down from a high high place? in anycase... my dad hitting with his own bare hands is pain enough le. so.. if weapons are included... i dont think i can survive lahh... (i cannot hit my bros back even though they're the one in wrong cause if i hit them, they'll be spared and my parents wil come after me. the only time i can 反击 is when i really cannot handle them and im in grave danger or else i die. i had enough of whacking from them when i was young [errr... frm 7???] till now cause i hit my bros and i dun wan it to happen ever again.)

kaes... nothing much to say abt the campcraft test. only know my lashing unusually suck. and also got at least 2 lashings the clove hitch never finish and also for shear lashing i forgot the third use which is to be used for pioneering... so crap. inner sheet didnt really float... erm then at least all m guylines were real tight. didnt dare to pull too tight cause... i dun wan the twine to snap... but this time the twine was quite sturdy and never snap so crap. and then i was the only one sure of bowline in the tent pitching grp. then gonna put the outer sheet on and i realised that they peg all the outer corner pegs wrongly, =.= wasted time there. so we all go roll up the flap while waiting for it to be pegged in. nothing else to do le mah. sigh. kaes. i beta stop crappin. whee. : ) and im not euuur ma or mum whateber...

2008-08-30T19:37:00.002+08:00

yo!!! i'm a being lame here. yea... xh says im even lamer and evil than keyun... HAHAS!!!! ☞lamer☜ i'm a layyymer.. kaes. im REALLY bein lame. and irritating. wahahaa. OMG... i think i'll fail LCP. my turning drills confirm cannot pass de. cause 1. i lag like siao. 2.i can even loose balance doing basic turning drills in pt kit. 3. i can fall down doing sedi ya and senang diri. 4. i cannot balance properly with tt black pair of shoes.. i gonna fail it patheticly. seriously patheticly... OMG... crash my head into the wall and nevr revive again.i really cannot pass drills de. seriously.

2008-08-23T16:09:00.002+08:00

kaes. running outa time. my bros made me went mad for 1h. in the end. didnt even manage to touch on one whole chapter... then the com was lagging for the past half an hour. anyways. i flung my bros txtbk off the damn table. cuase he was extremely annoying. then went mad. almost fought lah. duh.... im fierce. can. they really made me angry. zh... you really should be the diciple of my bros to learn ow to agitate me sia.

still havent get my top up card yet. sigh. my mum said she'll get one for me on wednesday till now. and i forgot. my top up card always come abt one week+ later when she say she's gonna buy de.... ahhhhh... faint....

ytd. glad it rained. cause no pt. no 2.4. and i'll die if there's 2.4. cause i really havent really recover yet. run out of school i start panting lerhs. but i think now i need not run out of school i wanna die le. ahhhhh... the matches... were scary. first time i light a match in my life. then my right tumb was luckily protected by my fingernail. or else it would have been burnt. and also... once, when the solid fuel almost caught fire, kian hao CL go walk past and woosh. the flame was extinguished... =.= then lighted 7/8 matched in total to light tt stuff. but not bad lahs. junyuan and me both first time lighting matches lehs. and we knocked our heads tgt. kaes. gonna do the history thing le. buhbye.

2008-08-17T15:23:00.002+08:00

hey. emo freak here. yes. freaked out by myself. abt the history monuments thing... i think i will gg fro that when i get serious cause... i'll take me a whole crazeh time to do it. yea. perhaps. days.

really wondering whether zh is a fortune teller. or something. cause... he really predicted. and yea. i did cry ytd. oh shut up... wth.

kaes. nothing special. just that sudden coldness acted up at 5.10 ytd again. sian. cuddled in the thick blanket feeling cold. then finally not after pillow-hugging. no yenling to pass me body heat... sigh.

dunno whata post... later then get some inspiration.
永远都不会把你给忘记，我的天使。

2008-08-14T17:18:00.002+08:00

ytd was seriously R.I.P... hahas. j-king lahs. yea. i slept with a jacket and my normal blanket and an extremely thick blanket... and ya know what? it was not too hot neither too cold. just the right temp. no wonder i had so many sleepless nights. more of thanks to the coldness of the night. and also cause my irritating brothers cannot survive through the night without the fan while i can be covered in blanket and still feel cool without the fan. direct opposite. but who can help it? i was already sleeping in the stuffiest and hottest part of the room and also that there's no more space in the house unless i wanna sleep in the kitchen lahs. d-uh. my granddad sleeps in the living room. and also another person that badly needs the fan and my parents... they sleep like quite late can? disturbing lights. argh. so yea. best thing. withstand the cold or migrate to the kitchen. wahahahas. it's horrible having such people sharing the same room as you can?

and btw... my two brothers. more of pigs at home dont have to go to school today and tml cause of PSLE oral. so shuang rite? envious. only study for two days and then the rest... play com when im in school. life's unfair.

today... obviously i slept through physics and CMP, waking up occasionally to catch up with the lesson. but yea. i was listening while resting so yea. wont die a horrible death. then effective learning was slack. hahas. sorta free period. cause relief teacher. then i drew for a while and slept for a while and spent the rest of the half an hour revising for the damned math quiz. in the end. math quiz never test inscribe and circumcircle. blew my head off. and i dont know what's the name of the triangle lahh. i only know there's issocelis and equilateral triangle.

and i got so pissed off with bus forty once agian. cause no one pei wo deng. so damn sian. and it's like. i was stuck at that stupid bus stop for a insane 20 minutes and my left foot from the ankle to my foot was hurting. i think something happened to it during one of the fights with zh. but still... minor stuff... hahas. wont get worse. my foot is casue i think a sugar cane dropped on it and caused a great impact... (the same spot which i sprain it a few years ago) feels weird. nvm. nothing can kill me. but i only know that my bag was so freaking heavy. my back almost cannot withstand that weight. ouch.

and if i aint mistaken, tml's health check... eeekkk... hahas. cause i never submit the form for the optometrist visit... and also... my back... got prob since last year. left side dunno what 5 degrees. sigh. if like zt must visit doctor. lawls.rah... and my dad still say what carry such heavy bags. what?!!! it's them that want me to bring back my textbooks... T_T yuan wang. and one day at least four bloody subjects lah. and also cuase i always forget to bring my textbooks lah. sian

lalalalalalala~ wish that everyday would pass as if i was over the rainbow. **daydreams**

2008-08-13T16:17:00.002+08:00

kaes. zh got pissed off by me cause he was unable to get me to be pissed off by him. hahahas. lame. =.= kaes. then as i guessed.. mr tan took bus 40.... AAHHHHHHHH!!!! damn it. and the WORST thing was. we were the only two ppl tt got off the same bus stop. hey. how coincidental can that get? and the bloody thing was he gave me tt kinda surprised look... =.= then as per normal. i was pulling tt long face of mine. no expressions. hawhaws. tt's why chris call me 苦瓜脸. hahahs. and please lurhs.chris=christina. kelisitina... a.k.a tuna. lawls and im zhen bao qiao [woodbridge mental hospital]. and then renee was 喂鱼. then fan mao was si miao miao... wahahahas. kaes the story goes. renee[喂鱼] fed christina[tuna]and then fanmao caught the tuna and ate it and went mad and was sent to zhenbanqiao and i digested hiim. hahas. i specially chose the word DIGESTED. wahahahas.

then the math test was. concept understood.. but 6 marks flew away thanks to my darling partner. ---->carelessness

kaes. florence got pissed off by me. woots!~ hahahs. cause zhenghui influenced me on teasing ppl. whahaahahas. anyway. i imparted part of it from certian ppl. and zhenghui is like.. dots. can.. he's much much worse than wilson. wangwang... hahahas. kaes. im gonna work out on qq now... requested by my darling friend, so yea... hehehehes. wahahahas. then i'll soon add lihongjin, linxi blahblahblah. got a list of em i guess... lalala~

whee~each day past like the wind.

2008-08-10T15:35:00.002+08:00

sigh. do tt dumb chinese thing frm abt 1.30 till now... cause cant find somewords... hahahs. then got so pissed off with the dumb schol portal... cant find the word "attatch" and also cannot copy and patse. then i wont type derhs kaes. it's ALOT. so after wasting so much time on the school portal... i just realised that i also can use my own email account to email her cant i? im laggin. argh... hahas. today so obedient. never squabble with my mum. XDXD new record worhs. i never fail to squabble with her every sunday. hahahahahahas. thanks to np.... i've learnt.... self discipline, ability to control my temper better and also the sense of urgency. (hey... maybe ya dont know but yea. i can be in the bedroom for more than half an hour and my matress still unmade. hahas. but now. not more than five minutes i guess. including my bros' hahahs. lazy piggs. then i did my math hw larhs. then in the end. they were having lunch and i was finishing the last bit of it. hahas. then they finished all the rice that was for lunch... =.= T_T !@#$% miie got no lunch.. hahas. then in the end i went to the kitchen... and my granma said still got a little bit of rice left. then i sadi okay lorhs. then in the end. the "little bit" of rice came out to be ONE bowl or rice. kaes. one bowl or rice is enough to shut qioawen's mouth up... and ya noe what? they did not know that it was enough and go cook noodles... wth... then i ate abit of noodles and the rest gave to my bro. shhh... hahas. later they come say why you let him eat so much?! he so fat and you leh. so thin. must eat more! kaes.. that's damn lame... wah. my left hand still aching from that 40 pumpings. and also my left hand still hurting from fighting with zh...cause the skin tone of my hand is darker, so the blue-black dosen't seem so obvious. if it was on my leg... it's very obvious... hahas. poor thing. just gently touch it will feel pian lerhs. hahas. hahas. hahs. im lamin. but do i look like i care? no i dont so hahas. finished my math revision paper. surprisingly i didnt go mad doing em. cause normally i go mad doing simple inequalities. especially a whole chunk of them. reason- bored to death. will become a restless freak derhs. but yea. as i said. this time round was a surprise. so yea. SUURPRISE!!! lawls....

i hope i didnt grow thiner due to being sick. but normally i do... hahas. and yea true. my skirt is looser... while last time was just nice... AHHH... ppl buy skirt cause the size too small, i buy cause too big. yea. like i buy the skirt in my pri sch... the bookshop auntie gave me size S... then the length is okay. but the skirt is damn LOOSE! then go change the size to XS... still vv loose... then didnt bother to go and change liao lahs. (in the end, the hooking thing was shift further aways by abt a 1-3 cm? dont know larhs) the skirt was way above the knee... and when i sit down always zou guang derhs. cham.... cause so short what... somemore dont have folds like our current skirt.... but now the skirt quite long larhs. seriously. when you dont alter it or fold it. and especially when you dont fold your shirt out. we look like retards. hahas. but i dont bother to fold the skirt... cause the pocket small enough liao larhs. all the contents dropping out le lorhs. hahas. im insane wahahahas. the-insANe-girl.... lawls. lamin...

2008-08-09T12:52:00.002+08:00

kaes... update huh? ytd was... ZH. you die... hahahas. hit him so many times lorhs. but then... UNFAIR!!! he's wearing watch. so in the end my left hand got one beautiful blue-black there. pain la... swelled a little too... but nvm... wahahhas. small injury... but he's damned sick can? keep poking me. biantai... hahahs. smalll injury cause compared to me and my bro play umbrella fite... hahas. but the fact is... my younger bro stronger than zhenghui lehs. have some shame man. hahas. j-king.

then yts walk to marine parade from east coast... long long distance... hahas. then in the end went to the bus stop... i realised tt no direct bus. maybe bus 31? hahas. i think alight at geylang then walk back. but not vv sure so dun dare take. then i look at the signborad... "joo chiat" *info in process* then i realised it's the WRONG direction. then cross the overhead bridge AGAIN and took bus 135 and walk home from payalebar. ... 1 MRT stop... abt >5<10 bus stops... hahas. record time. i tried to walk fast and took 17 min. WOOTS~ normally i take like half and hour to stroll back.

then slept.. till 6. my dad si dou bu fang guo wo. dragged me up for dinner. i wana skip dinner and sleep!!! hahas. almost hugged my pillow to the dining table. tired larhs. zzzz... some more take medicine lehs. cant help but sleep. then after dinner go bathe and dry my hair automatically without being reminded and took my medicine too. yay! improvement. still the cough syrup sucks. so SWEET larhs. cant stand the taste of it. then watch Olympic opening ceremony from 8 till 12+++ hahahas

but worth my time. fabulous performance. their marching is like art... it seems so energised. and SHARP. envious. T_T their marching is nice. the performers were up to 2000+ for one event... but it's like computer animation liddat... vv synchronised... and their moving in and out of the stage was extremely efficient. but there's one part where your can parang me... i dont get what they were singing at all. sry... the olympic theme song. sry... my audio's last... and every time i take out my phone and blast music, i dont get what the lyrics mean unless i've looked at them before. lalalala~

crazily remembered what the sir challenged us to do. and yay! i did 40 pumpings at one go and not my hand is aching a little. but hack care!! it's nothing to me. xD hahahs. later gonna study.. slack a bit for now. cause later gonna chiong till abt 5/6 pm and starting at like maybe 1.15? hahas. i WILL take breaks... still got plan reward... which is... play my recorder! hahas. still got one bar of kitkat left. the one that cost two bucks. hahas. i always treasure chocolate and will only eat them during emergencies... hahahs. 13:12 twwee more min to go... hahas...

IM PROUD TO BE A LEFT DOMINANT BRAIN!!! hahahs. great misconception on ws K4... thnx xinhui for helping to clear this lagging brain. XD

2008-08-05T18:07:00.003+08:00

wth... today math lesson for me was... *blur look* dun understand mr tan at all.. he's speakin too fast. drawing too fast.. screams my head off. ahhhh... kaes. then ate chicken don for recess... 加饭still not full.. sigh.then for lunch.. dont need say liao larhs. go home still ate like two slices of bread. hahahahahahahahahahahahas. horrid ass hole... he thinks he has the right over the com isit? kaes nvm... lemme start pouring through construction. for the sake of m dream job. muz be gd in construction.... ta-ta

tanqiaowen--------->CHONG AH!!! :)

155th post......

2008-08-04T18:20:00.002+08:00

lalala~today's assembly talk was SIAN... the cross country... must go there so early... then not sure whether need to report earlier for duty anot... maybe taking taxi there with linxi.... but still... no $$$. lawls... then i see the mr khoo show us how to walk in i already wanna faint lerhs. *I'VE GOT NO SENSE OF DIRECTION* maybe go in with friends [who arh?] then come out... follow LAOMAO of course... wait... dun spoil the romance. i dun wanna be e dian deng pao... maybe walk out with the digestive professor.[quite qian bian at times still...] hahahahs. kaes. gtg SOON... ta-ta... later maybe comin on to do sum online stuff... CHINESE cher so 狠心... give us like... cloze passage 10 questions 40 phrases to find the meaning of it for every single one... kaes. for now... let my br0 play the com. l8ter he's goin for project work... 羡慕...

2008-08-04T17:52:00.002+08:00

wth... tanyenling really mistaken me... anyways. talk abt happy stuff.. before i come with puffy eyes everyday to school... kaes. tt's a FACT tt'll happen in a few months time. erm... yea. when i come bak as sec 2... seriously... more of grieving for the lost of a person tt cares for me so much till now and also how empty the house is without her.

okays... lalalala~ as EXPECTED. my parents were like... geog----->17/20 OnLy?! chinese----> 36/50 nia.... [this sucks i noe...]

lalalalalala~ hope i'll enjoy the days remaining that i'll be happy. and hope that these days would b spent with my closest friends and people tt are special to me.

2008-08-03T12:19:00.002+08:00

LAOMAO! abt my 5 stations... it rawks! WOOTS!~ not trying to swine anyone... but it's a SUUURPRISE!

SBJ -160 cm [B]
sit-up -30 [A]
sit and reach -56 [A]
IPU - 18 [A]
shuttle run - 11.0sec[A]

GTG.... miie and my bro almost fought just now. hahas. LAOMAO. but i twist his hand. XP he twist my hand nth happen. i twist his hand he screams. cause... im flexible maahs.

2008-08-03T11:51:00.003+08:00

hiie. to continue with yesterday. okay. i'm yes. i'm sick. down with flu. euuu... hahas. am a little better than just now. sigh.

during tent pitching, i hit my left hand with a peg. OUCH. yes. despretely seeking for medical attention. hahas. jkjk. tt was just pure exxageration. hehes. stole my mommy's phone. wahahaas. and they went out. leavin out her phone and the marvellous computer. xD sigh. my bros are BACK. nvm. at the most i disturb one of your phones. wahahas. i cannae think. not do hw larhs. my head aches. ahhas. but yea. the com. cant stop myself but to use it. laomao. XD l8er yl come start MIAO-ing at my cbox... wahahahs.

ytd killed me. polished my shoe so nicely for nothing. soles were burning. the kiwi melted. wth.... sigh. when i used half a bottle of water to polish it.. sian.

天天都想念着你。

2008-08-02T18:12:00.003+08:00

lalalala~ today is a whole lot tiring than expected... bet everyone's hand are hurting with those horrible blisters. T_T . to me. today was horrible for the tent pitching part as yesterday was five stations, including inclined pull up. the fact's so sad about me is that whenever i grab hold of something cylindrical [eg. monkey bars, inclined pull up], my hands will have the sign of bumbs. and if the condition worsen from the bumbs, it'll become blisters. ziting suffered the worst fate, her blister burst. okay. that WAS a sad case.

endurance pt was hell. *ahem* the 马步 was pretty well, fine. [please people. don't you come bashing me up huh?] but the static was. insane. the last part. 120 manual seconds was horrid. i pracically landed on the floor alot of times. shush. hahas. only for that round i touched the ground. the others, i've sucessfully endured. i RATHER DO CRUNCHES. seriously. remember games day? we played pass the msg? yea. during crunches position, my legs never drop down once. hehes. the pumping was so-so. not really tiring for that part i guess.

i'll continue later. i
ve gotta go for dinner. that's sad huh? believe that you won't miss me. hahas. im just joking.

2008-08-01T21:18:00.002+08:00

ytd went MAD.... haha. yl stopped miie from dying. almost went crazy. wait. i was crazy... tml... np.... lalala~

2008-07-30T19:28:00.002+08:00

okaes. make this a short and sweet one. before i start on my lovely biology revision... kaes. tt wretch. i promise that i shall digest him one day.

ate early dinner... hahas. too hungry lerhs... then laming go look at the world map... lame lame lame... then i decided that i shall do something useful so went out to watch the news... hahas. then just the right timing lorhs. laomao. came to the chungcheng zao an ni hao tt part then saw em interviewing junjie. lame lame lame. almost laugh until i got stomachache... and it's . oh nvm...

during math... isabella and catherine put on some make up for that pic of a guy and it was ESPECIALLY hilarious (i didnt find it amusing in the first place.) when mr tan jin sha came in and say this looks like me hor? then i laugh until i cannot stop laughing... haha. stomach pain like... nvm. only for a while. but that was so not like me to laugh until i cannot stop laughing.

wrap the table until nice sia. then i crack open the class lock at the first go. hehe. wanted to climb in at first... i always do that. WITH MY SKIRT ON PHNGMING. dun xiao kan wo.

forgot to bring my bio notebk home i tink... cant believe it. tt's my only source of studies... hahas. cause i always study from my handy notebks and crap the txtbk off my table. XD

geog only 17... yvonne 19. AHHH... she always win me except for the first calss test. hmps. must work harder. just realised that my geog notes missed out some impt. parts... hais. beta go edit and rearrange... i only care abt geog and math... they are the two most impt. in my opinion. ah yea. not forgetting ART. i flung my first test lorhs. 3.5... crap crap crap.

kaes. beta start craking. : ) gd luck for all.. tml no activity. YAY!!! XD =D XP HIP HIP HOORAY!

2008-07-29T19:03:00.003+08:00

crazeh ppl... keep wanting miie to do split... ahhhh....crazeh.... hahas.... lawls... i can... but i dont feel like doing so nia. cause it's nothing to be houranable abt.... dumb ass hole zh... hahahs. dont worry. im cooler than a cucumber now. it's just that almost every CLOSE friend that comes up to miie will mention sumone's name. irritatin. and zh WAS talking sick... damn bloody hell sick. really feel like whacking hiim. tt irritatin. biology digestion teacher... benedict solution is used to test for glucose and iodine is used to test for startch... kaes... im lamin... but this's called revision ya noe? hhahas.... then found out that i didnt loose my red pe shirt... or else... wakakas... will die a horrible death... friday 5 stations... friday pe... saturday unit activity... sigh....

the happiest thing is that ive met you.=)

2008-07-29T18:41:00.002+08:00

damn the hell larhs. just when i was abt to type... my bro... reached home... laomao... tml im so gonna use the com... hahas. he got AVA duty so he come back later... .woots... i lurve it mann. :) hehes. i ate dinner... extreme early one. cause i was damn hungry... ahhh.... hahas. and tt was when my grandma interupted me frm letting eat sum dessert and dump a bowl of her delicious pumpkin rice in front of miie. not bad larhs... hehes. sigh. idk how to get to east coast... cross country... sry...but my dad told me a hundred times lerhs. but then... to day lagger day for miie lorhs. lag day. horrendous.... maybe taking taxi to east coast... with linxi.... cause she's councillor.... need to go earlier for cross country duty also. XD hehes. wide contact worhs. beware of miie... wahahahs. im horribly nasty when i can be. and zh will be the first to tatse my evilness you wretch.

2008-07-27T15:13:00.002+08:00

sigh. sumone reminded me of siqi.... liusiqi my friend. my 志同道合的朋友. man... it's been like for a few years. lost contact two years ago... she'd always movin house... yea. when the landlord blahblahblah. something liddat. i only know that she's from macpherson primary. and that's all that i noe. she's the adorable gal frm chinese dance. we're the well known gals there huh? hehes. we always stick tgt like super glue... much more than how im sticking to hy, yl and flo. much much more. i was a dumb not to ask for her contact no... and this reminds me that it has been a long time since i've email. 晨秋... awww.... life's been so so very busy... so very extremely busy. that i almost forgot my friends... sigh.

the way i buzz around my house in search of my specs was almost like everyday? cause i only wear my specs at home when i watch tv and use the com... hahas. then it will be lying around somewhere. rmb once i couldnt find and almost went to sch without specs... hahas. funny one huh? tt was HORRIBLE. or it's like this year. when i locked the door and walk walk walk then i realised that i never wear my specs then run upstairs to get it. ah. forgetful gal... ta-ta. gonna catch up on those stuff... those important stuff.

2008-07-27T13:09:00.002+08:00

kaes... start with friday... wth... lashings. my hands pain like... ahhh... then it was like... 2.4 postponed... thank goodness. cause i wasso damned tired on friday tt i noe tt i couldnt run. lawls. i started yawning my head off since the second period of the day till the last. horrible rite? cause im damn cold until cannot slp. then wake up like 4+ in the morn. or earlier... siao rite? then after np... wanna walk by side gate. then see DOGS... wth can. then walk by main gate... reached to the bus stop... then see another TWO BIG DOGS. faints... then stood there for 30min... 30 long long long minutes... never trust bus forty after np... cause it's quite late liao. then also. when it reach aljunied mrt tt stop. it gets so damned crowded that i almost cannot get off the next stop. kns...

saturday.... you can do it programme. the disc profiling... you ppl can guess rite? im obviously C-34 is the highest followed by S-30 then a D-21 then I-15 .... hehes. can see im da type tt dont relli laugh.... zzz. lame lame lame lame.......

then today. went on a sms spree.... lawls... lalalala~~~ im like.... miss my mum's phone. almost a week never sms lerhs. lawls. maybe can say a month? cause no credit liaos. then when my parents call... my phone will be like off. shhhhh... later i get killed. wahahas. hais. go downstairs buy some barely and red dates then continue typin. hehes. story on how i always go around my house like a bee searching for my specs. HAHAHAS.

2008-07-22T20:47:00.002+08:00

lalallalala~ another day... forgot today need to go hy's house... then yea... go lorhs. with my shoes falling off. oh bother. socks got holes again... im gonna save money buy new ones... hahas. horrrible.. ytd.... treated miss chan like an apple and started munching off. hahas. finished the apple damn fast sia. normally take like 10~20 or even twice or thrice when i eat lesiurely...

decided that for music test we'll be singing wu yue tian. uh-oh. i just realised that i cannot sing that song. cause... a little too high... the highest parts... cause i keep going higher and higher and cannot get lower. hais. im suited to sing xia xue by fei lun hai. emo songs~~~ hahaha. tt song's like for kx one... LAWLS.

lalalal~~~~~~~~~~~~ idk what to continue with for the other's are crap... hais.

2008-07-20T15:48:00.003+08:00

okays... going abit mad huhs? today woke up hyper active. more to the point of destructive huh? juz now too hyper, went to find my racket and whacked the suhttlecock till dunno where it go to... wth... will find it sooner or later but now just cannot find it... my dad will kill me. the shuttlecock damn ex sia. very bored juz now... just realised that my mum's themes can be sent. XD so send lorhs. not very nice but still... okay lurhs.... compared to the nokia nth. which is so like. euuu... hate that shade of blue. this change to a black theme... o_0 cool colour. hahas. this is so like nice?

blahblahblah. sunday annd saturday so sucks cause of home. a pleasent day of rest have been turned into a disaster. western food so sucks.. cant stand it lerhs. got sick of rice and veggies selection. at home eat too much liaos. and beehoon is like so not hua suan. jap food queue so long. then is like.. none of the school's food fits my appetite. bleh. got so sick of them sia. maybe eat noodles nxt time... but yea. later they eat so fast then i eat so slow then they buzz off without me. hmps.

typing like siao liddat. cant help it. i think im on the com quite alot lately. hahas. this is like lawls.. lame shit. i spammed the same thing. not exactly spamming larhs. but when im ending. i'll say. ellos and buhbyes once again. lawls right?

dont know what to type. i juz realised that i need to talk. talking to myself is so boring.. so so damed boring. got pissed off by my mum--- blast music [volume only like one-sixth to one-quart?] what the hack. say i watse batt. then listen to mp3 lorhs. so sian. mp3 got no songs one... then listen to fm. got sick of fm 92.4 classical music. go to 93.3 then tok so much crap. then in the end did something. coloured a whole piece of paper... then carve the squad's name out... hahas. told you today my hand cannot stop liaos.

went polishing halfway.... then dont wan polish. then realised that... nvm. let me be boring. hahas...

i miss you...zhuangjunjie, you rawk.

2008-07-19T15:38:00.005+08:00

this is boring... didnt feel like doing hw... i bumped my head. the SAME spot twice today. on some crazy solid stuff. **ouch** metal and wood sia. i polish my shoes like siao. kaes. at first when i polish with water. see no diff at all. then fed up. did the cloth a little wetter then kept polishing.... then still notmuch diff. then second round then can see the effect. hahas. then the second shoe... rush for time and my grandma scolding me. so i dip the cloth till totally wet.... until cannot be anymore wetter. then i started polishing... then like... INSTANT results. =.= wlao... then the first shoe i took like so damned bloody long?! hais. then like ytd. jennifer cl told me to polish somemore... cause thursday i slack. only polish with kiwi... in the dark so didnt noe whether it shined... then is like must wait for kiwi to dry then can polish with water. then when it is dry... already no time to polish. so yep. ytd shoes were not shining at all... at least shine abit... not like normally.. shouldnt have polished. caused i just rmb this morning that i polished the previous time liao. no wonder no scratches and so shiny... wth. that means i polished for nothing? nvm. at least this time round shine abit better than last time? ytd used 100% kiwi. then today used 100% water. and it was alot of water...hais... my mum wan me to do assesment book. no... i dont want... i cannot stand it... i cant stand assesment books...... siao... this really is siao... i cant stand it. ahhhhhhhh... last time i also slack like siao... the more i do the more siao i get can. in the end do until idk what im doing and also forget how to do. do until i cannot understand the thing when i understand it initially. hais. im bored. im starting to die of boredom... and i will die of it. cause the assesment bk only do one topic nia. and it'ss like one page can go up to 30+ questions. SIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kill miie. by the end of today... i will be sent to zbq liaos. and i hope i dont start talking to you ppl with my perfect way of talking... which means werid accent... which makes me go after myself... kaes. there's none other than me. IM WEIRD. IM MAD. IM CRAZY. IM INSANE. IM the-everyday-blues. IM EEYORE. IM ZBQ. IM WERNZ. IM QIAOQIAOBAN........

IM QIAOWEN AND IM ALSO QIAOWEN. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DOESNT NOES WHAT QIAOWEN IS TALKING ABOUT. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DONT KNOW WHAT QIAOWEN IS THINKING ABOUT. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DONT KNOW WHAT QIAOWEN IS TALKING ABOUT. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DONT KNOW WHAT QIAOWEN IS CRYING ABOUT. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DONT KNOW WHAT QIAOWEN IS EMOING ABOUT. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DONT KNOW WHAT QIAOWEN IS TYPING ABOUT. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DONT KNOW WHAT QIAOWEN IS ACTING ABOUT. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DONT KNOW WHAT QIAOWEN IS WRITING ABOUT. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DONT KNOW WHAT QIAOWEN IS HAPPY ABOUT. QIAOWEN SOMETIMES DONT KNOW WHAT QIAOWEN IS ..........................................ABOUT ................................ [trails off.........................................................]

hey people. bye people. aloha. tata..... ni hao. zai jian. apa khabar. selamat tinggal..................................................................[goes on forever]

always a mystery you are. getting to know you bit by bit....

141 post~

2008-07-19T07:48:00.002+08:00

hais. ytd was service day. xh and jj practically missed all the fun. it was enjoyable. hahas. not for the last part... when i gave in to my stomach. i only rmb that when this happen last time which was ages ago... the more things i eat and the more i drink. the more uncomfortable it will be. yep. at least this time round havent come to a stage that i wanna vomit. only felt like vomiting. bleh. dun tok abt iit liaos. im thundering on the keyboard cause of my bloody pshyco bros. they sick sia, everyday play soldier front kill ppl. lame shit. got mental prob one lorhs.

then yep... at first idk how to talk... then i listen to marcus and kianhao[sry... idk howta spell] CL. the first time me and yunrong was a failure. hahas. in the end they have to help us clear up the mess we created. yep... then eventually we split into two groups. then yunrong with marcus and im with kianhao CL... zzzzzzzz.. then gradually was more comfortable with talking. only cleared floor 19-11 cause halfway i gave in then watse alot of time. and we were suppose to spread the msg to two blocks. sry ppl... thnx yunrong. i only rmb that most ppl were not in. and i was being greeted by FEROCIOUS DOGS. kianhao CL thought i scared of dogs. but tt time yes. normally no. cuase it's like they're so fierce can? tio shocked. but only one of the household that have such dogs open the door. and i think i was too shocked to talk for tt part. oh ya. then we also met up with a lady that only how to speak malay. sad :( hais.... convertsational malay still havent learn to the state where i can explain what's crime prevention. and also... it's like a language that i tried so hahrd to learn but forget all the next day. im the worst person to learn a third language... then got one part. we like press the doorbelll then see the owner coming from outside then i thought i was gonna start explaining liddat then the lady said: i think i can teach my parents crime prevention. so im like. er... okay... then walk away.

pleasent thing was some aunties and uncles know all about crime prevention :) that is a good sign huh? got one uncle we tried to talk to speak hokkien. idk. i only noe teochew. so hahas. i did not really talk. but yep. i understood every single word kianhao CL was talking abt. hehes. i understand hokkien but cannot speak hokkien i can speak and listen to teochew. hhahahahas.

hais. next week. i SURELY GG. wednesday got k9 unit visit. then thursday got extra activity... i think both of my parents WILL explode. this time is really 怎么办？it's like. maybe i shouldn't have joined np for they opposed greatly to this and it's so damn freaking hard to seek permission from them to go for activities.more of i try to skip the grilling by telling my dad in on the day im staying back in the morning when im going to school.

HAHAHAS. jj dk what cheongsum is... wth... lawls..... blur guy. skip so many np activities liao lorhs. can be like jonathan liddat but jonathan's much worse... gtg.... byes

2008-07-17T20:40:00.002+08:00

i give up on da thing im doing... hahas. casue gonna consume lots of miie time. hais. tml np. somehow dun feel like going... got a bad feeling... i think is somewhat forget to bring somehting.. or i forgot to bring uni hanger... with my uni inside. lawls. these are the things that almost happen to me so dont say waahhhh... cant be so kua zhang derhs. hais. i hope i rmb. i dont wanna clip up my hair...

going to school is like taking pain-killer. after the effect is gone, it hurts alot. the wound's bleeding. over and over again. sometimes i'll just forget about it temporary. but thepain come back worse than before. much much worser. friends are like another responsibility. sometimes, i just wish to break away from the reality world and into my own world of fantasy... where nothing there's nothing to worry about. npcc is just sometimes a killer. it depress me further. sometimes it's just like a place to escape all your worries from. sometimes it's just where i torture myself at. i hope the future day will be better. will not be this pain. and that i will never feel this way. never ever again. im gald that i've met this bunch of lively, cheerful and... i dont know how to describe them but they're just fabulous. im glad that i've met this bunch of true friends and that they always are supporting me. whatever happens. to everyone-i love you. and also to another specail person.

you people mean so much to me. you people make a difference. just to let you know that your care and concern for me is much much appreciated. and i will never forget this squad, never. npcc makes up my life.

2008-07-17T19:37:00.001+08:00

just realised cannot use macromedai flash... nvm... try adobe then... hais. then i go blog hopping first lorhs...

2008-07-17T19:26:00.002+08:00

kaes while waiting for the macromedia flash to be downloaded so i can work on my project... -top secret= planned to be a surpirse... hahas. long time never use flash lerhs. the last time was taking part in the flash competition held by chung cheng high school main i think one or two years ago.. hahas. im actively participating in these kinda stuff kaes. =) so yea. last time i blur blur step in to the school porch and see a funny statue there? of a lady? hahas. then went into lecture hall 1 if im not mistaken. yes. lecture hall one. only one thing abt the experience in the lecture hall. creepy and freezing. yep. hahas. now to think of that. quite memorable... but then never get into the prelimary round can. T_T hahas. cause yep. my pic WAS good but the animation doesnt fit the story... so yea. hais. no creativity...

just now called junije... for fun. im bored up can. cause almost everytime i call florence she'll be busy... or on the phone with yenling. more of the second reason. so dont feel like calling. then yenling rite. her !@#$% aunt is so damn sickening can? always say what yl blah blahblah... hahas. oh yea. his bu xiang yu gan abt tomorrow is cause during the extra activity... we owed the CLs 32 pumpings with installments. erm. if i didnt rmb wrongly... that was said by weikian CL...

hais... i cant iron uniform. i CANT. my grandma's nagging is mei wan mei liao. my dad will somehow later jia you jia jiang... kaes. im gonna go work on smth liaos. muahahahaas. you ppl beta appreciate hors. i beta familiarize with it first...

2008-07-13T13:02:00.002+08:00

im bloody bloody disturb and CONFUSED. caint concentrate and do hw.... nvm. i WILL later or i think im gonna torture miieself somehow to get inta di mood... blah blah blah. el lit just sucks can? that miss honey huang is not sweet at all lorhs. her hair messy like siao char bo. worse than us ppl having the fringe in front can. **wonders why mr chua's like blind???** hahas. that miss honey just talked and talked and talked... until i wanna dose off cause bloody hell. i dont get a word she's saying can... im VKA. A's the last so no point listening. she made no ppt so yea. miss yee'slesson i can understand beta sia. hawhaws... i think im gonna have lunch. instant noodles. heys. i dont want my hair to drop tt fast lehs.

hais...................... i think i've made up my mindafter a day of calming down and thinking.... i've FINALLY come to a DESICION. to miie. i think it's pretty important... nope. more to extreme importance. cause will affect alota things in future... arghs. why have i to make desicions. im bad at it. but at least i think i didnt regret entering chungchenghigh... i dont...

2008-07-13T12:38:00.002+08:00

~~wth...~~ tio shocked. ignores the msg to cool down... kaes. relax...

kaes. my mum. 0nc[- ^g^in... wan me go see doctor cause of my face. kaes i noe it's like a piece of shit but she must noe that medicine is just like monsters chasing after me in reality and in my dreams. sadly... she didnt noe that after that one month of medication... i've already developed a fear for pills,drugs. everytime i get flu.. i reluctantly swallow a panadol... **blacks out** kaes. i rather have zhong yao which is bitter than pills... im the 0pp0sit[- of all people... can. i told ya i w^s and ^m w[-ird...

continue later... my st0m^ch's upside down thinking about that... **vomits** it's PR^CTC^LLY disgusting.... and bian tai...

it's really unespected that you've said that. not that it's not expected from you but not expected at that time.

2008-07-10T16:06:00.002+08:00

blaH blAh blah. another boring day of school waking up with a muscle cramp much MUCH worse than ytd. then skip skip skip. effective learning. im proud to be a VKA =D hehes. true. when i go out. i take like at least 5 to 10 min combing my hair. almost 15-20 min in the room choosing and puting on my clothes. unless i choose what to wear a few hours ago... only when i come to school everything is squeezed into 5 min of popping into my sch u and two to three min for my socks and shoes. read fast? bleh. but yea. i really go along with the crowd. rmb tt time i followed the crowed and crosstiched the whole way through after PSLE. =D hahas. then abt me reading fast.. errr... okay larhs. i read at an average speed but then i dont need to read it another time. cause everything somehow like imprinted and i rmb inside liaos. unless it's damned long larhs. zzz... blahblahblah...

then after school... wait for hongjin. i the end walk past her class see she not in class... zzz then go library lorhs.. then in the end saw like so damn many ppl inside larhs... then saw hongjin's bag... hahas. then went down went up dunno where to go. then in the end saw limjiaqi and catherine[sry... unsure of spelling] then we go into the library tgt... hhahas. then after her lesson went outside... went down the stairs... *ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch..... X how many steps there were* then went to canteen. wait for that horrible lihongjin go buy her lunch... tell miie earlier mahs. hais.

out of the sudden saw a familiar mop of head... the one that like got put wa xi [wax... the way E.T pronounces it]liddat one but never. ---->zhenghui... tio shocked.. hahas. aiya then saw those hm ppl there.... zzz... the BESt is no one call miie mama... hahhas. yipee... lame lame lame. im lame...

then walked to the busstop... walao... fell down at the canteen stairs.. oh ya. kohyanling behind miie i think... then i was like... ahhhh... **my legs went into twist and turn position and my head was divign for the ground** but in the end dunno how i tiwst an turn landed on my butt... phew... all thanks to the DAMNED cramp...

now at home posting... lame shit. open my email and found out joejoe sent like that dunno what square root thingi... i tell eu. it killed me. it's so damned bloody long can... i cannot stand textbooks one lorhs. 3-5 min of reading i faint diao liao. except for geography and history and ART ... and i think no more liaos... i rather have an extremely boring book lorhs. wth... nvm... maybe tt email came at the wrong time huhs? cause yep. rush rush no time... hahaas. if not i'll be pouring over it. i luuurrrvvvveeee math. so yep. but not maht txtbks... hahas.

what should i do? im lost once again. like what miss lai said. if you dont change.. you keep falling into THAT pit. over and over again...
i miss someone. and i WILL miss someone. thinking of you. ___,___ make up my life. i'm glad of it. even though it's a little too sudden. but i should be grateful to you. for you've taught me how to cherish things and how to let things GO...

2008-07-08T16:49:00.003+08:00

ok damn... why today see so damn damn many funny weirdos. esp yl. see tt crazy NCC guy. big flirt. then when walking outa school got one grp of damned bloody ass hole guys behind us purposely say that our singing sucks and the construction sounds nicer. HAHHAHAAS. puh-lease larhs. then still say what THREE of us singing when it was TWO. they should go check their hearing huh? oic. or are they insulting the artist singing also. park. dont noe how to appreciate music then diam diam. like they dont sing liddat. and i hope that those ppl that said that to us----->florence yenling and me can sing better than us then we got nothing to say. park! what right have they huh? just that they're our seniors? wth. we dont even noe them and did we offend them. since when did we. irritating idiots.

blah blah blah. today... acc teacher damned pissed off with us. but sorry teacher. but yea. we're all damned bored and sleepy after so many boring lessons before your lesson.

finished el lit. i totally agree with the poet. school's borriiinnngggg....

hahas. me and flo like havin verbal war liddat... hahahs. cuase we two like... nvm. she kept telling me that she will go disturb someone. no not ~~disturb~~ but bully. oi chipmunk. go guan jiao ni lao po lehs. she's like going around kajiaoing me sia. =X wakaakakakakas. bleh. she always ssay it this to me in this kinda tone. ren hen jiu le kaes. always say what: go guan jiao ni de lao gong hai you ta de peng you leh. HAHAHAS IT'S MY TURN

kaes. enough of evilness. nice blog skin she made. but i just dont like that shade of green somehow. hahas. nvm.

lalalalala~~~the happy daes are over, it's time to get serious. but how?

it's a world of wonder... i wish that we could go on like this forever...

2008-07-07T13:02:00.003+08:00

okay... blah blah blah. i realised that my phone going bankrupt... and yea. wont survive derhs. so i wasted it... hahas. the worst i can get from it is that when the next time my mum contact me, th line caint get through. hahas! zzz... kaes yea. not funny i guess... then i will gg when i get home. muahahha.

<--------------------------------------------im mad------------------------------------------>

hongjin可真是可恶。因她赶这去上长跆拳道而让我跟她一起奔跑。岂有此理。哼。最后我和他一起搭德士去到图书馆。免了吧。从图书馆我家还得走上差不多半个小时的路程耶。太不值得了。加上我当时肚子以饿了。我宁愿在巴士站待个十二十分钟也不要和她到图书馆去。该死的李洪锦。

why i'm so frustrated? cuase i saw one whole group of CLs... and i think they saw me. zzz please lurhs. i ran like siao can. one school gal frm chung cheng running like siao at around 8+... it's like.... kaes. idk whata say... let me drop the whole thing...

kaes. another day ytd. did my hw... and then sms... siao siao siao. idun care. anyways. gtg... or i'll up in the menu tonight... woots~ hahahs. kaes. buhbyes

i caint believe im doing this...

2008-07-05T11:20:00.002+08:00

kaes... the np was... wth. kaes. i think yl was rite. miie pumping position wrong... but yl... too late liao. befroe ytd's activity. i was already having a bloody prob with my back. when ever i wanna sit down. the joint that part hurt like hell.. but after a week or so or isit a month? then will be okay lerhs.

i just realised that im a beansprout... wth larh.casue wanna find out what errr.... napha thing then go look at report book. just bloodily realised that i've been growing taller but lighter... wth...
P4. 146 and 32 kg. P5 152 and 35 kg. P6 153 40.5kg. current-158 and 39.0 kg. kaes. damn rite? no wonder my dad kept saying that im thin. but i think rite... p6 no more cca and swimming. so rite, for those that participate actively in sports and then never rite... vv easy gain weight one lorhs. wth 5kg... it would be sum use rite now. hawhaws.... i wan to get back to at least boderline underweight range... zzz... only 200 grams away...

last year's PFT is the best lorhs. only A and B... got 3 A and 3B hahas... lame shit. ppl can do much better than miie kaes... p4 i failed my inclined pull up? i wanna parang the cehr lar. cuase i did three and pass liao then still sae i fail. nvm. cause retest got erm... 13 which was a C then as per normal... my standing board jump got like 13+ then last year siao siao got 158.. muahahahas. shitty bad in that lar please...

kaes. enough crappin abt my shity results. ytd. pt was slack. but i damn tired still cause i got no lunch. tys so much jane. nvm. this's called endurance. but i suddenly got a new burst of energy... since dunno when i had that... then during pass the msg... those two bside me were laughing their heads off.. for dunno what. ziting too. then 12.15 go change. i was stunned there lorhs. cause idk what they toking abt cause i recieved the msg tell me to fall in at 2... and never say when to get out of the calss. then they said one oclock phototaking isit?. then i was like... huh? then dont care lorhs. followed suit. zzz...... argh. i dun wan miss dnt... dnt... like art liddat. dun wanan miss. somemore my dream one day is related to that. dots...

i purposely clipped up my hair... weird. i neva clip up my hair derhs. and miricaly i managed to find like two hair clips...

then after activity... we wanted to play soccer then no soccer ball... then went home... then walking out of the school with err... zhenghui,huiying,kaixiong,junjie i think... then hy and zh parents fetching so they waited at the concourse... then it was like... twee of us walking towards the gate then zhenghui shouted mama... then i was damned pissed... then it's like... my hand got so many things. and so damn heavy... then i like... aiya.. hack care... then kx say leave miie and jj alone... **cough cough** but hahahahahs. jj neva let him lurhs. grabbed hiim... wahahahas. then it's like... l8er jj sae what kx blah blah blah. caint rmb but then offended miie. hahas. but then facing different direction liaos so dun bother to whack him... zzz... hahas. then i walk so damn slowly larhs. cause damn heavy and like you qi wu li... so i draggggggggggggeeeeeeeeeddddddd my feets along... my foot hurt a little. maybe wallked too much. but then i dun care i guess... at least it didnt hurt as much as my back. pain not ache. then walk walk walk reach busstop. stood there like damn bloody long lorhs. i think at least 10+ to twenty min liao lorhs. ill luck... i had the impulse of walking home... which would take me probably at least 2 hours or so... which was quite okay. but to the thought of walking through geylang sent a chill down my spine and sent a red signal that i should meditate, calm down and wait for my bus. maybe i should try other means to get home... i rmb tt time go to dunno where walk out frm schl i saw but 158 and 100 i think not sure bus 100 got anot but i rmb 158... it's well.. compared to 40 not that hard to wait... but then must walk to i think KFC tt directioon... wait for one day i have a light bag then i try and experiment... cause 158 and 100 direct buss too. and waiting time is much shorter... but the road towards the buss stop is quite long... but nvm. im used to walking long distance... so wont die. last time also walk home ders. with a whole stack of file in my hands somemore. but didnt die of exhaustion [priamary sch tt time] hahas. but the walk is like abt one busstop away? when i got a light bag. i could reach home withini 3-5 min. woots. i last time challenge myself to beat the record of the earliset time i got home... zzz... i lame sia.

then... 7:01 the bus FINALLY came. fed up liaos. then i got up the bus. at mrt station there rite. damn lot of ppl aligghted the bus [correct term or wrong?]. then the bus so so crowded that i almost couldnt get down at the next stop... hias. maybe nxt time i get off the mrt stop and walk home. siao. damn long with those things on my hand sia. but yep... endure... got one auntie sae why ou just now dun wan get down the bus. pls lah. the bus so damned crowded how to get down larhs... if she dont mind me being inconsiderate and using my bag,uniformhangerand my box of shoes and knock her hard. then i would have done so.

dragged my feet.. .hais. then reach home. hungry. but still.. ate my normal share. maybe much lesser i think. im siao siao one... then after that took like half an hour in the bathroom. *oops* to wash my hair la. pls lah. make us llie down on the service road... dirty sia.plus my hair tend to trap dust etc easily. casue it's thick. very thick. inherited from my mum i think.

then blow my hair dry then slp lerhs. i was tired. for crunches position. i held my legs up but never put down once... but the anti-stich exercise killed me. hard lorhs...

hahahahahahahhhahahahs. todya go to school somemore. got hw. but dun wanna do rite now. cause. not in the mood. i tried doing geography and my mind kept wandered off into daydream land that i gave up doing and so i sat down rite in front of the com that my bro zi dong rang bu to miie. hahahs. lame...washed my hair... cause i noe i wont wanan wash it at nite... and if my hair's not washed at least once a day... it would be like a nest of straw... so yep... i think i write vv logn lerhs... ta-ta..

the-everyday-blues. i wish that this would stay forever. the jokes and fun we share together-NP

2008-07-03T17:26:00.004+08:00

things are getting all so confusing... im givin up on myself man. lemme take a bweak. kaes... i've realised that actually... simple... is the best outa all things.. why make things difficult?

kaes... im VKA hahas. walao... my V is like... 30 =.=''' then audio 12 ke.. idk how to spell [i forgot] 13... hahas. scary person that talks and read fast. learn things fast... zzzz... then the other bloody stuff dun wan sae...

kaes.. huiying started with another script... blahblah...

found out sitting with liutian... WTF! damn the person who arranged it lurhs. ****! it's argh... then linxi jie still sae liutian's "okay" larhs... **faints...** then hongjin is... no expression liddat. wait... i think she dont even noe... hahas. i told linxi jie on the second floor otuside err... i think it's yea... im between gr and it. hawhaws... then saw those hm ppl... zzzz... whatever... at least no one called me mama... beware zhenghui... i ren bu zhu lerhs... me xia shou hen zhong de kaes.. i was from badminton and mini-tennis kaes... hahahahhahaahhs. :)

caught fllllluuuu i guess... im cold rite now. with a jacket around me fan off windows slighty ajar partly closed by the curtains. KAES. it's humid... but yea. block nose. if this gets any worse... hawhaws... fever again i think. ever since i came to chung cheng... i've been falling sick agian and again... but yea. bad health... blahblahblah... this is bloody stupid.

argh... bloody hell... np uniform never wash... hang there for like one whole bloody week liao... but okay larhs.. at least not smelly... just the smell of the uniform cover. i dont bother to iron it as it is straight i think... at the most polish larhs. my shoes... tio scratched like siao.... and my belt too.

~~enjoying the tranquility at home right now.~~ yea rite... if it was so... i would havve heard my phone vibrated... bloody hell larhs... watse so much money calling today... argh.... then my mum borrowed my keys returened to my bag and i never realised..... bloody hell.. i wasted i think 50+ cents calling today... i reallised that when i call and the other partey never pick up... i still have to pay 10 cent plus lorhs... damn.

i wont think deeper into the matter for now.. [up to euu to guess what the matter is] cause me... yep. damn bloody not nice... confused... **sniff sniff** and yea... im like luan... so damn bloody luan... this never have been so confusing before. have i advanced in level and it's like... the maze gets harder and harder as the time **archoo!** pass... with more obstacles to pass...

yep... im bumping into things almost ever morning... the fridge. the door. the table. the sink. almost everyything i could bump into... and i stumble up not walk... hais...

tml... another day. LIHONGJIN... hawhaws... tt bao li girl... man. she's totally more explosive than tanyenling lurhs... hahas. im short. T_T nvm. she's like jojo liddat. hhahahaahaaaaasss..... *no offence* pls... hongjin... dum stumble upon this blog... jkjk... everyone welcomed lurhs? it's quite dead...

it's hard not to think of people... especially you and you...

2008-07-01T18:16:00.002+08:00

blah... blah... blah... man... wth is wrong with miie? im laggin... seriously laggin. my dates are all mixed up... im still thinking it's may, june... whatever it is... seems to be a emo freak right now... blehs.blah blah blah... school sucks. home sucks... blah blah blah... i dont mean it sometimes but everything seems a blur to me eventhough it is just right in front or next to me... i cant figure out things in my old way. i cant concentrate.. i cant... argh. im going mad, berserk... i dont care whats happening right now. cause i cant think. im unable to do it. like a helpless fish outa water.. it's horrible.

bleh bleh... time FLIES... soon i'll be left alone... after my grandmas gone. home will be a place where i grieve over the lost of warmth and a proper home. what's the point huh? the world's damn bloody cold.. idk how to explain how i feel.. but maybe through drawing huh... depending you're able to intepret what i mean... whatever... i wish i wont go so mad that i need counselling...

2008-06-26T17:44:00.002+08:00

today... saw a horrendous scene that i would never want to see or imagine... dun wanna say. but thank those kind-hearted passer-bys who went forward to help her. and the vp came... yep. then her friends came... which i wanna scold her friends casue they jaywalked. wasnt that the consequense of jaywalking right in front of them... nvm... they mught be to tense to think... nvm.... the person who got knocked down too suffered form great emotional struggle... i hope she recover soon.... god the healer will heal her... and i hope to see her back in the school campus well and healthy back in the school campus... but yea. let this be the lesson to hrer and also all of us... NEVER JAYWALK OR YOU'LL SUFFER THE CONSEQUENSES <---------------- look here alvin

2008-06-25T17:49:00.003+08:00

hmmm... kaes. d Nt not that bad huhs? yenling complained it's boring... hahas. yea. but to me it's not. cuase yea. designing... cause my dream is to be either an interior designer.... zzz yep. still things to do with art... hahahs.... that's miie. today... wth... one gay callgraphy cher came in. yl and hy were laughing like siao. i've decided that li shu was pweety... hahas.... then pe was gg... wahahaas... nvm... height and weight... wth... sprout by two cm and lost a kilogram... out of logic sia. wth. so im now like underweight? zzzz.... by 0.1 kg. then eng... dscriptive riting... confirm out of the point one lurhs... always wan me think outa the box so now cannot think within the box liao. darn. nvm then math was a bore... wahahahahs. then lunch... mman this wk im bankrupt. seriously. i got like ten bucks for three days. so yea. juz enugh to sspend. hahahs. nvm. then that tyl. over-reacitng sia.

During lunch time today... a girl named tan yenling with the E was sitting down on the bench enjoying the bowl of extremely spicy laksa... out of the sudden. she spotted some seniors from four justice and started looking out for her crush... and when she spotted him... she screamed and her cheeks blushed like a rose, smiling so broadly revealing her cute dimples. but sadly her crush ignored her.... <...to be continued>

kaes. then she started teasing me. not exactly... it was [lim]jiaqi and miie XP teasin... wahahahs. yea. suddenly when gonna reach dee bus stop... they somehow mentioned something. sry. im sorta sensitive to tt topic cause after all it wasnt pleasent and i still can get out from that shadow completely.... so yea. i was like... diam.

at least compared to her im not that feng kaes.

2008-06-24T17:14:00.003+08:00

wtf... tanyenling... you're so gonna die... nvm... this only last for a minute or two and this destructive thought will abolish itself... yet i still trust you enough... ahhhhhh..... damn you lurhs... kaes... dun wanna talk abt it...

school re-0pens... wth... this time round it's like.. hahs. just tou tou use dee com derhs. and aniwaes... dunno if someone vomited in the printing room. i tell you... the worksheets they gave have a disgusting smell that you will really wanna puke... wth lurhs... imagine having this kinda paper for your exams... *faint* must bring perfume go spray at it... lawls... lamin here. and yeeeeaaaa... tease fer all ya want... no reaction ders... i hack care. exactly and not exactly... bleh... i should be sent to woodbridge one day. seriously... hhas. muahahahahas.... blah blah blah... lalalalas...... trallalalalalals....... ta-daaas...... ta-ta..... kaes. buhbye... fuming rite now. kudos to tigger. you owe me.

i hope you don't mind... it was a prank...

2008-06-21T15:23:00.003+08:00

lawls.... hahhahahahas.... im up to mischieve AGAIN... kaes... what did i do... my mum asked me to get her coffee right... then i live a little bit of cofee powder and then take a bottle cap fill it with water and put coffee powder in it and in to the freezer... hawhaws... then yea came out... coffee powered ice... actually... it smelled quite nice... it smelled like.... like... like... COFFEE... lawls... hahahhahahs. this is lame i know... hahhas... lame gal i am. please dont freeze to death after reading this post. for i will have great responsibility... zzz =.=

kaes... officially declared that i decided to sms in chinese... florence was the lucky one to recieve my first sms in CHINESE... lawls... she doesnt understand... always think of the wrong one... zzz... i guess this is my latest trend? lawls... im bein lame... hahas. school's re-OpEnINg eeeeeeeeekkkk.... nvm. at least i get to see my friends...

2008-06-20T16:46:00.002+08:00

kaes yea.... the new time table sucks... 2 hours of history... half and hour of it and i will be like having countdown session liaos... wth... and all starrt with boring lessons... ahhh... will sleep liao lah. i cant believe it... to see miss low the first one in the morning... T_T it's like... wth...

good thing is... el lit gonna hae NIE trannie... WHOO HOO!!!! it's like so shuang lurhs... cause we would only have to bare with that miss yee for a while and the nie trannie will be teaching us for a few weeks or is it one month? hahas... cause last time i one year got two or three nie trannie come to my class until my chinese teacher was like so damn pissed off... HAHAS... we suffered under the hands of wu lao shi lorhs... wth... give so much xizi...

then dunno what effective learning teacher and effective learning sr...

kaes larhs... should end here huhs?

should i even not think about you?

2008-06-20T16:19:00.002+08:00

kaes... ytd... went to marina.... watch kungfu panda... was freezing in there lorhs.... i was ice-cubed. T_T yea. not funny kaes.... the movie's quite nice. XD yea.... lot's of meaning... so yea... the secret to sucess is.... to believe in yourself... =D im being lame... zzzz... kaes.... then ate dinner... then took bus 133... on the way..... saw hong wen school; beach road; lavender...

then rmb abt the first time i went out with them... to get slacks =.= with kaixiong; junjie; calvin and zhenghui... to buy slacks... we met at pasir ris library... then saw one of the hm's ppl classmate... and i think it was ivy was it? then blah blah... then they say what go royal sporting house buy isit? then i was like what?! dunnid ask i also noe... the things there damn ex sia.... cause last time i always window shop and stare at their badminton rackets... then i want it lorhs... it was like glorious... hahas. but i knew it was impossible... kaes back to it... then in the end.... i called like so many times... jiaying SI, tanjin, detian, and xiaohui i tink... it's like wanna die lorhs... cause tanjin nco said it was at beach road... then i was like *faint* wth. so yea. somehow we managed to takke mrt and to lavender then walk to beach road.... i guess that was when zhenghui started to pull my hair huh? then we walk walk walk end up opposite the place we weere supposse to go... then the auntie in the shop told us it was opposite the road... then we went lorhs... by overhead bridge.... then bought the slacks... hahas. rmb junjie had to get an extra big size derhs. *no offence* hahahs. then yea. i rmb someone treated us to sugar cane water.... then in the end i forgot what happened... we started pushing money around... then in the end it was into kaixiong's bag of slacks bahs... then i rmb we ate somehting else also... paiseh lurhs... stm... kaes then that was where calvin started calling me wenzi... then kept disturbing me... zzzz then we walk and walk then we end up outside hongwen school.... then i dunno which two from hongwen wanted to go inside... then i forgot what happened... i think i got too irritated with zhenghui pulling my hair that i walked so fast to shake em off? then i think it was kaixiong or someone that caught up... whatever who cares abt that huh?then yea. end up... i took mrt home? or did i take bus 100 home? aiya anycase... i FORGOT... yea. i think teachers will be hearing alot of " i FORGOT ......." from me lorhs... this is ALWAYS what happens when school reopens...

yea then took bus 64 home? i think so.... hahas. yenling... CHEER UP!!!!!! whatever happens... we will always be there for you kaes?

2008-06-19T13:11:00.002+08:00

kaes. wtf... i kept a whole collection of water bottle and now it's like gone? must be my mum go throw away de lorhs... she always throw away my things she relate as junk WITHOUT MY PERMISSION... then now no water bottle lorhs... argh. damn.

today... got squad outing... budden caint go... bleh. my aunt bringing me out today. to watch kungfu panda-chinese version... sian... even though going out with my aunt is only once in a blue moon. budden... going with my friends are more fun rite? i miss them so much lorhs... esp. KILLER tigger the CHIO BU, pooh!!!! and the CUTE AND HYPER piglet...

kaes... gtg... just a summarize... buhbyes...

i miss all of ya.... esp someone... zzzz

2008-06-17T10:58:00.002+08:00

i dun wanna go home. not stay in it. no.... puh-lease. it sucks like hell however i try to adapt to it... after my grandma goes back... tadaaas.... wth. i will be the household maid liaos... wash the dishes... sweep and mop the floor. do up the damned washing... fold the clothes... wth. our clothes is like... 8-10 bamboo poles of clothes PER DAY. sia. then is like. at home im in no place to talk de lorhs... my youngest bro. as i said... he's the YOUNGEST. so wtf. he wins in EVERYTHING... then my second bro... he's studies not good mahs. so naturally yea. so yea. my dad's the majestic king =, my mum the bossy queen... my two bro's the princes and me- the palace maid... i think this fits totally. kaes... then my mum getting new job... which starts in the afternoon... that means that i will not get the chance to see her. for those that have parents that goes overseas all the time... you will noe what i mean.. i rather have her scold and nag at me rather than not to see her at all...

T_T make life easier... less complicated... i dont know how am i going to survive all this... cuase this change is gonna be permanant... and i guess it would last for years? bleh. another episode of "ADAPTATION TO THE NEW ENVIRONMENT" when i just have got over one.. no... i dont want to ADAPT... it's so damn hard to do so...

my life's in a MESS. a mess is it in... i miss six patience... it rawks... i miss so many people..

can you tell me that you're not joking?

2008-06-17T10:30:00.002+08:00

tagged by piglet aka florence...

1. Who was your last text from?
florence... 10 may sia...

2. What do you love most in your room?
no room lahs. but i hate home.

3. Do you prefer KFC or Macdonalds more?
none of the above. cant stand them lerhs

4. Your current relationship status?
single. lame question...

5. Does your crush like you back?
idk... i'm unsure myself

6. What is your current mood?
emo...

7. Whats your mum's name?
linxiuqing.... zzzz

8. What colour shirt are you wearing?
dunno whata say... brown... light brown

9. What was the last thing you drank?
tea?

10. If you could go back in time to change something, would you?
change my damned attitude

11. Have a crazy side?hahas!!
crazy yes. in the snese like those that go to woodbridge...

12. Ever had a near death experiencE?
idk... but i think so... im totally forgetfull...

13. Something you do alot?
msn, blogging [cant afford to sms]

14. Angry at anyone?
currently no. cause im neutral to all things right now.

15. Do you wanna see somebody right now?
i guess so. to clarify somethings...

16. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
i noe someone... but forgot her name... T_T

17.Last time you cried?
pitifully last night...

18. Who are you talking to right now ?
myself... im gonna go to woodbridge soon...

19. Do you have dimples ?
nay...

20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite gender?
zzzz... how would i noe...

21. What do you usually order from starbucks?
i never step into that before...

22. What's your biggest secret?
my biggest secret is something that so many ppl noes...

23. Favourite movie?
i SELDOM watch movies...

24. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
pokemon... sian. my bros watch so i watch lorhs.

25. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
homemade jelly... tsktsk... don't tell anyone...

26. What do you think is irritating right now ?
nothing irritates me...

27. What's your favourite smell?
UFS... Unidentified Favourite Smell

28. Describe your life in 2 words, what would it be?
miserable, serious

29. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
never kissed anyone except for my parents... zzz... that was centuries ago...

30. Do you like rain?
obvious... it suits my emo mood...

31. What are you thinking of now?
processing this questions...

10 ppl to do:
yenling!
huiying!
xinhui!
joy!
claire!
kaixiong!
yunrong!
ziting!
idk who to tag lerhs... then let me make it all those that visit my blog bahs... hahas.