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sunrise and sunsets!
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the night sky
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Guess this will be the last post before MYE. I guess I souldn't be doing this now but yeah. I'm getting quite sick if i hold this any longer. I wanna scream the hell outa me. Things seem so distant and blur. I'm back to the pitch dark burrow I've dug when I was depressed. And now i fall into my own dug hole again. What a fantastic thing to happen. Common test for chinese could not have killed me but my parents certainly would. Which is I decide to give both test papers for inspection together with the mid-year paper. My current plan. But I do not know whether it's gonna work. Mood swing today. Emo the hell outa me. Lost my upmost appetite. Miracle this is. A bottle or three quarts of it ( one quart finished off by tigger) and half or less that half a sliced guava for lunch. Reached home swallowing two dry pieces of bread covered in apricot jam which was horribly sweet. Then dinner. No appetite at all. But I still managed to swallow down one bowl of rice, forced one piece of chicken and a piece of potato. That's dinner. Less that one quater of what I normally eat. And I did not even want dinner. I just wanted the Lipton tea. I haven't been drinking water since the last sip I took from JoJo's water bottle, the pathetic sip of apple tea which i drank from JoJo's bottle too, another sip from Lim Jia Qi's water bottle, another small sip at the water cooler and yeah. My apple tea for lunch and the cup of tea I had for dinner. Getting dehydrated. ): Ought to get some water. But I guess not. Hmm. My mums working at Marine Parade tomorrow. Can't escape to Marine Parade library. Sad news. I can't study at home. Wanted to jog from my house to Geylang East Swimming Pool and then one whole big U-turn back. But, to add onto my sorrow, I'm suffering from an irritating cramp now. Getting exasperated. I wanna get outa this. Ughhh. Formal typing today I guess. Avoiding all the grammatical error? Can't seem to get my words right today. I'm getting emo. Getting dark. Just let me cool off. And harden, just like the formation of the cone of a volcano...
Just Let It Out